人在江湖

初入江湖,膽小如鼠.只是小卒,任人擺佈.

為了前途,學會狠毒.性命不顧,殺出血路.

人在江湖,不由自主.雖很富足,也很無助

走入歧途,一片盲目.心中的苦,向誰傾訴?

往事回顧,歷歷在目.也曾糊塗,犯過錯誤.

一身傲骨,不肯認輸.起起伏伏,誰勝誰負?

幾番沉浮,終於醒悟.原來江湖,沒有勝負.

江湖的路,是場賭注.一旦下注,不能作主.

腳下的路,該向何處.不歸之路,不要重複.

Let me perish

If I'm the only one who's broken. And everybody else is safe because of that, I'll do it my way. I don't care if I'm broken beyond repair. I've already lost the will to live my life. 

Voids got bigger

I feel like I'm back to 2008, still living my meaningless life through games and pornography and doing nothing throughout the days.
All the emptiness kicks in again... Just that this kind it's ten-folded.
Wasting every single day, living like a dead, like a spiritual zombie.
Even though I found an angel that did heal my heart, but if I continue to be such a bum, I'm gonna lose her too. Like how I lost the woman I used to love so so much.......

This is not the kind of life I'd want to live again, and this isn't what I signed up for in 2010.
Told myself at the end of 2009 that my life would be changed in 2010, I'm either gonna get one last shot at the work-permit in Singapore, or work in my STUPID country, or (maybe) just go to Thailand.
The (maybe) worked out... For awhile... One and a half years in Thailand, great experiences... But now I have to come back...
This "test" in Singapore is really void-ing me out.

I didn't sign up for this...