Sorrow, Anger, Bitterness, Hatred, Love

Two are better than one, because they have a good reward for their toil. 
For if they fall, one will lift up his fellow. But woe to him who is alone when he falls and has not another to lift him up! (Ecclesiastes 4:9-10)

How long have I fall....? I forgot...
That day still seems like just yesterday... When everything crumbles apart...
Is there no one to lift me up...? Or is it that I reject all who tried to help...?
Nevertheless, woe be to me... Woe be to me...
Everyday I'm escaping, I'm running away...
From the past that always haunt me, till this very day...
Anger became my friend, bitterness my partner, and hatred my teacher.
Everyday gets worse and I just curse till my head burst and it hurts so bad, since she left, I should have thought of that one first...
No one, not even me can accept what I did, and I just keep running away, but I can't, cause the past comes back again.

Sorry, put the blame on me

As life goes on I’m starting to learn more and more about responsibility
And I realize that everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things that I've done
And things that haven't occurred yet
And the things I didn’t want to take responsibility for.

I’m sorry for the times that I’m always gone
We are distanced and you are alone
I’m sorry for the times that I had to go
I’m sorry for the fact that I did not know
That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I’m sorry for the times I would neglect
I’m sorry for the times I disrespect

I’m sorry for the wrong things that I’ve done
I’m sorry for the problems that I’ve always shun
I’m sorry for the fact that I'm well aware
That you spend the night keeping me in your prayer
Because I’m in a grief like every day
I’m sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you were the best thing in my world
And how I was so proud to call you my girl

[Bridge:]
I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can’t apologize for being wrong
Then it’s just a shame on me
I’ll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me

[Chorus:]
You can put the blame on me [4x]
Said you can put the blame on me [3x]
You can put the blame on me

I'm sorry for the things that I put you through
And all the times you didn’t know what to do
Sorry that I go and destroy our pact
Trying to escape from the past that we had
And you would rather be home with all your kids
As one big family with love and bliss
And even though they treated me like their kin
I got a second one and they didn’t agree
I got up and left you there all alone
I’m sorry that you had to do it on your own
I’m sorry that I went and added to your grief
I’m sorry that your son was once a thief
I’m sorry that I grew up way too fast
I wish I would’ve listened and not be so bad
I’m sorry that my life turned out this way
I’m sorry that my sins came and took me away

[Bridge]

[Chorus]

I’m sorry that it took so long to see
I was dead wrong trying to set you free
I’m sorry that it took so long to speak
But I was on the road trying hard to flee
I’m sorry for the pain that you was dealt
For the disappointment that you felt
Just a worthless man that wasted your time
Your dad should've never let you be with this guy
I’m sorry for not being the one that you found
I hope you manage better next time around
All I ever do was display my rage
Trying to love when I’m born to hate
Look at the scum that I’ve became
Always backing out disgracing His name
I’m just a sinner deserving the flame
Because of His love He will remove my pain

Even though the blame’s on me[3x]
He will take that blame from me

And I can put my pain on Him [2x]
I can put my pain on Him 
And I can put my pain on Him 

And I can put my pain on Him  [2x]

Reminiscence

我問為什麼 那個人傳簡訊給我
而你為什麼 不解釋低著頭沉默
我該相信你很愛我 不願意敷衍我
還是明白你已不想挽回什麼

想問為什麼 我不再是你的快樂
可是為什麼 卻苦笑說我都懂了
自尊常常將人拖著 把愛都走曲折
假裝了解是怕 真相太赤裸裸
狼狽比失去難受
我懷念的是無話不說
我懷念的是一起做夢
我懷念的是爭吵以後
還是想要愛你的衝動
我記得那年生日
也記得那一首歌
記得那片星空
最緊的右手 最暖的胸口
誰記得
誰忘了


想問為什麼 我不再是你的快樂
可是為什麼 卻苦笑說我都懂了
自尊常常將人拖著 把愛都走曲折
假裝了解是怕 真相太赤裸裸
狼狽比失去難受
我懷念的是無話不說
我懷念的是一起做夢
我懷念的是爭吵以後
還是想要愛你的衝動
我記得那年生日
也記得那一首歌
記得那片星空
最緊的右手 最暖的胸口
誰忘了
我懷念的是無言感動
我懷念的是絕對炙熱
我懷念的是你很激動
求我原諒抱得我都痛
我記得你在背後 也記得我顫抖著
記得感覺洶涌 最美的煙火 最長的相擁
誰愛的太自由
誰過頭太遠了
誰要走我的心
誰忘了那就是承諾
誰自顧自地走
誰忘了看著我
誰讓愛變沉重
誰忘了要給你溫柔

Woo ~ OH ~~
( 我懷念的 )
我還有想要愛你的衝動
我記得那年生日
也記得那一首歌
記得那片星空
最緊的右手 最暖的胸口
我放手
我讓座
假灑脫
誰懂我多麼不捨得
太愛了 所以我
沒有哭 沒有說

Feel like home

Kinda funny how this world can treat you, like a freak in a sideshow, a carnival creature climbing outta cans.
I'm a diamond in the sand but you can't tell the difference on a beach full of rhinestones.
My life's like trying to swallow a pine-cone. It's tough when you live fast, just to die slow.
Love is postponed, my dreams are far-fetched, it seems so I go to the gym and do my sets.
I know it don't make sense and I don't expect for you to know what it's like
Sleep, dream, rage, and regretting everyday of my blights 
Missing her every night. Liftoff, I keep pumping till my lips turn white and my chest gets tight,
but who on earth really cares? When you're so far left behind that even death looks right.
All I can do is hope for the best and pray that it gets a little better than yesterday.

Take out the box, look inside, and cry

孤身跌倒

传 4:9-10
两个人总比一个人好，因为二人劳碌同得美好的果效。若是跌倒，这人可以扶起他的同伴；若是孤身跌倒，没有别人扶起他来，这人就有祸了。

默想
信仰不要孤单，事奉更不要孤单。神的工人要寻找属灵的同伴，共同携手奔走天国路，要寻找属灵的同工，齐心努力传扬真道，让更多的人与我们同得属灵的福气


曾有过的属灵知己，后来也被自己的无能给赶走了...
现在跌倒也就只能有祸了。

我怀念的

The past will always catch up
No matter how far you thought you've ran away from it

心愛的人

华语：
跨萬重山 雲霧中飄飄蕩蕩
再見你、再見愛、再見了故鄉
顛簸中 左顧右盼
唯一不變的是毅然的倔強
回首不堪 往事雖由濃轉淡
想見你也許是奢侈的願望
掩著傷 卻流露假裝
或許你已經將過去全都遺忘

广东语：
其實我不會面對 其實我不忍離開
留住這心碎 眺望未來
只因我做什麼都不對

闽南语：
為著阮心愛的人 為著你心愛的仔
為著你的夢 來換阮心內的孤單

华语：
回首不堪 往事雖由濃轉淡
想見你也許是奢侈的願望
掩著傷 卻流露假裝
或許你已經將過去全都遺忘

广东语：
決心拋開你的袱累
仍知道方向風雨不改

闽南语：
思念你的聲
聽你的歌 
你甘會知影

人在江湖

初入江湖,膽小如鼠.只是小卒,任人擺佈.

為了前途,學會狠毒.性命不顧,殺出血路.

人在江湖,不由自主.雖很富足,也很無助

走入歧途,一片盲目.心中的苦,向誰傾訴?

往事回顧,歷歷在目.也曾糊塗,犯過錯誤.

一身傲骨,不肯認輸.起起伏伏,誰勝誰負?

幾番沉浮,終於醒悟.原來江湖,沒有勝負.

江湖的路,是場賭注.一旦下注,不能作主.

腳下的路,該向何處.不歸之路,不要重複.

Let me perish

If I'm the only one who's broken. And everybody else is safe because of that, I'll do it my way. I don't care if I'm broken beyond repair. I've already lost the will to live my life.