A Pause Life

I'm currently living a "pause" life, meaning to say, I can't work, I can't go to school to study, "stuck" here everyday.

But I am grateful, because of this "pause" I can return to God, and serve Him, because of this "pause" I can get to know all those kind and adorable people in Charis.

I got a feeling that this "pause" will "resume" soon, but I certainly hope that it "resume" in Singapore, and not Malaysia...

But whatever the outcome, I certainly believe that God has the best plan for me, so if you are willing, please pray for me and my brother to "resume" our life here in Singapore. :)

Optimistic

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.
You made me happy, when skys are grey....

:) Today I am happy. Because God has brighten up my day with His many ways.

Disposed to take a favorable view of events or conditions and to expect the most favorable outcome.

It's hard to hold in the drop of the saline, watery fluid continually secreted by the lacrimal glands.....

All I could do is to fully rely on God...and pray....

Sigh, it seems that quadratic equations alone is enough to give me a hard time... I guess I really can't fly before I learn to walk...

Sometimes it's is just so hard to do the most simple things... zzz

Expressing gratitude

I am grateful to two person, Wei Wen and Chun Quan. For they are willing to use their precious time, money and effort to teach a person like me... Thank you very much! And I know it's because God's love and mercy is in both of you. May God bless your days and may you be fruitful always. :)

Yawnism

To open the mouth somewhat involuntarily with a prolonged, deep inhalation and sighing or heavy exhalation, as from drowsiness or boredom. This is what I call, "Yawnism".

Things to clarify

Mel asked me a question in True or Dare today: "What could be the reason/s to make you leave church?" Well, Mel, here's my question first, leave church or leave God?

If leave church, well, there's many, for example: can't stay in Singapore is one big reason, or maybe when the church is too corrupted beyond hope.

But if it's leaving God, nope. It's not that I am over confident like you said, I am not confident with myself at all... It's just that I have faith in the Lord that He will protect me and deliver me away from the evil one, and I shall always seek His kingdom and His will first.

Many people leave church/God because of BGR! Yesh, this deadly problems causes a lot of people to leave church/God, funny thing is that they didn't put God as their first love, they put God as second or lower....

So, don't worry, I have placed God as my first love in life, so even things don't go my way, I believe God will have the best plan for me, even if it's regarding bgr.

That's all I want to clarify... going to sleep now... zzzzzz

Green Light

There's this legend in the North Europe, says that if you were to see the green light once in your life time, quickly make a wish, and whatever it is, it will come true.

期待着一个幸运和一个冲击
多么奇妙的际遇
翻越过前面山顶和层层白云
绿光在那里
触电般不可思议像一个奇迹
划过我的生命里
不同于任何意义你就是绿光
如此的唯一
Green light I'm searching for you
Always 不会却步哦
真爱不会结束
green light in my life
遇见了一个传奇却如此熟悉
在天空里的精灵说一声listen to me
有一道绿光幸福在哪里
触电般不可思议像一个奇迹
划过我的生命里不同于任何意义你就是绿光
如此的唯一

Rap>Maybe it's myth I'm seeking
you say
maybe it's a wild dragon chase anyway
but still i'm gonna listen to my heart and try
pack up all my load
so long, goodbye
green light i'm searching for you
always 不会却步哦
真爱不会结束
green light in my life
期待着一个幸运和一个冲击多么奇妙的际遇
翻越过前面山顶和层层白云绿光在那里
触电般不可思议像一个奇迹
划过我的生命里不同于任何意义你就是绿光
如此的唯一
na……na……na……na……
green light's right here
爱永远在你身边 身边 身边……
遇见了一个传奇却如此熟悉在天空里的精灵
说一声listen to me 有一道绿光幸福在哪里
触电般不可思议像一个奇迹
划过我的生命里不同于任何意义你就是绿光
如此的唯一
na……na……na……na……
这是最美的传奇在我心里
你就是唯一

By Stefanie Sun: Green Light. :)

Hanabi

The flowers are set alight, sparkling, dancing and releasing a green light.

The petals from the fireworks of dreams fall quietly into the heart inside.

Did you, who sent out the light, see it too? It's the same light.

And, even if you haven't, I believe that you will come to feel it someday.

I am singing to you, singing of this love that is roaming inside my heart. Can you hear my voice?

It's fireworks, bursting in an instant.

Bloom proudly, way up high, sparkling, dancing and releasing a green light.

The love that surrounds me rings out earnestly. At least, I will not regret until the end.

The flowers are set alight.

All kinds of words scattered about mischievously.

And the confusion that rooted me to the spot quietly disappeared...can you see it?

It's fireworks, bursting in an instant.

I grasp the sparkling, dancing flowers of dreams as they rain down into my hands.

Let my love ring out to you like I wish it to. I prayed day and night, that God will guide us through.

And the flowers are set alight.

It's fireworks, bursting in an instant.
Sparkling, dancing and releasing a green light.

Bloom proudly, way up high, sparkling, dancing and releasing a green light.

The love that surrounds me rings out earnestly. At least, I will not regret until the end.

And the flowers are set alight. . . . .



(This is a song originally from Bleach, I just change some of the lyrics so this is not my product.) ;)
(Next post is about the green light, for some of you who don't know what it is.)

The feeling of Hapad.

Today, I felt happy and sad at the same time... Someone told me this is called hapad, haha... Anyway, I was worrying about this and that...now I think about it, I really think too much la.... But here is some REALLY good verse that is my all time favorites: Philippians 4:6 "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." I must get over this kind feelings faster, well, what I mean is get over the sad one and stay the happy one, haha. Anyway, someone told me that I am too expressive with my expression, but I think it's good, cause most of the time we human forgot to express our expression out.... I'd always believe action speaks louder than words, but words are very important too.

I am shocked with myself. And I really really LOVE THE LORD!

I've said something which shocked myself greatly for I find its like a miracle for me to say it out... But I will never regret for what I've said, as I have been thinking and praying before I sent it out... "I love the Lord, because He has heard my voice." [Psalm 116:1] I love the Lord, more than just because He has heard my voice, and because He saved me and shower me with His grace for I am so unworthy...

Failure...

Suddenly, I feel that I'm a failure....

One Big Family

Today, I've come to realize, that, slowly and gradually, I have beginning to treat our church people as family... Which is great! Lord, teach me how to do better as they ARE indeed my eternal family. Amen. :D

From Ennui to Jubilate

Sitting in front of my laptop looking for something to do but there's just nothing I can do anymore except for posting this post...

I am going down to my mom's place soon, if it is the Lord's will, I will learn how to tailor to earn myself some money next time... Cause I figured, if I take up this job as my career next time, I could earn more than $10 per hour, which is quite amazingly lots to me. With my standard, if I were to work outside, I think I could at most earn $8 per hour, but with this job, I could earn more than that and I could take my off day anytime which is most suitable for a man like me :)

And even if I wanted to switch job next time I could just do so, wouldn't be much problem for me. And this job would earn me some savings to start a business or something... Most importantly, I could save some money for my marriage next time! Haha~

Sigh

What on earth..... Man, nowadays this world is really getting more and more corrupted... Just now an advertisment pop up from no where while I am playing Facebook, its about dating la, normally this kind of ad I would close it as soon as I sees it, but this ad attracts me with this title: BigChurch. Then when I looked at the ad, it "lame" me to the core man, women wearing so little trying to get dated... And it still says about "Connecting people through love and faith". What the heck? Sigh...

Check this out ------------>

Check it out yo, just added some new songs into the Mixpod... Too bad peeps, can't add more into it cause the mixpod can't play lots of songs... But man, Lecrae's song sure is nice! Check it out on youtube if you've got the time. I highly recommend these few songs: Indwelling Sin, Take me as I am, Invisible, Got paper, Go hard, Don't waste your life, I did it for you, and We don't.

Blah x10

Hmmm... Lately have been going out quite alot. Spend alot of money...but well, sure had fun being with those adorable peoples. Got bored quite easily lately, sitting infront of computer feel so empty man... Well, just posting this for the sake of posting. Cause people are saying my blog is so dead.

~The End~

PLANS

Nothing much to do today and so I decided to write down the savings plan and how am I going to get married by the age of 26...

It seems quite impossible if I start working next year till I'm 26...
6 years of savings average money is only around $50,000 the most... For I guess the average pay for someone like me is only around $5-$8 per hour
How am I suppose to get married with only around $50,000 savings by then? (Note: that is the most I can save by then after my calculation)
Even if I could get to married with this amount of money what about the money for my child's studys?
I'm quite worried... but I am gonna hold onto this verse of the Lord's

"For I know the PLANS I have for you", declares the Lord. "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future." (Jeremiah 29:11)

I shall not worried then... for He knows and has the plan for me... Amen.