Reminiscence

我問為什麼 那個人傳簡訊給我
而你為什麼 不解釋低著頭沉默
我該相信你很愛我 不願意敷衍我
還是明白你已不想挽回什麼

想問為什麼 我不再是你的快樂
可是為什麼 卻苦笑說我都懂了
自尊常常將人拖著 把愛都走曲折
假裝了解是怕 真相太赤裸裸
狼狽比失去難受
我懷念的是無話不說
我懷念的是一起做夢
我懷念的是爭吵以後
還是想要愛你的衝動
我記得那年生日
也記得那一首歌
記得那片星空
最緊的右手 最暖的胸口
誰記得
誰忘了


想問為什麼 我不再是你的快樂
可是為什麼 卻苦笑說我都懂了
自尊常常將人拖著 把愛都走曲折
假裝了解是怕 真相太赤裸裸
狼狽比失去難受
我懷念的是無話不說
我懷念的是一起做夢
我懷念的是爭吵以後
還是想要愛你的衝動
我記得那年生日
也記得那一首歌
記得那片星空
最緊的右手 最暖的胸口
誰忘了
我懷念的是無言感動
我懷念的是絕對炙熱
我懷念的是你很激動
求我原諒抱得我都痛
我記得你在背後 也記得我顫抖著
記得感覺洶涌 最美的煙火 最長的相擁
誰愛的太自由
誰過頭太遠了
誰要走我的心
誰忘了那就是承諾
誰自顧自地走
誰忘了看著我
誰讓愛變沉重
誰忘了要給你溫柔

Woo ~ OH ~~
( 我懷念的 )
我還有想要愛你的衝動
我記得那年生日
也記得那一首歌
記得那片星空
最緊的右手 最暖的胸口
我放手
我讓座
假灑脫
誰懂我多麼不捨得
太愛了 所以我
沒有哭 沒有說

Feel like home

Kinda funny how this world can treat you, like a freak in a sideshow, a carnival creature climbing outta cans.
I'm a diamond in the sand but you can't tell the difference on a beach full of rhinestones.
My life's like trying to swallow a pine-cone. It's tough when you live fast, just to die slow.
Love is postponed, my dreams are far-fetched, it seems so I go to the gym and do my sets.
I know it don't make sense and I don't expect for you to know what it's like
Sleep, dream, rage, and regretting everyday of my blights 
Missing her every night. Liftoff, I keep pumping till my lips turn white and my chest gets tight,
but who on earth really cares? When you're so far left behind that even death looks right.
All I can do is hope for the best and pray that it gets a little better than yesterday.

Take out the box, look inside, and cry

孤身跌倒

传 4:9-10
两个人总比一个人好，因为二人劳碌同得美好的果效。若是跌倒，这人可以扶起他的同伴；若是孤身跌倒，没有别人扶起他来，这人就有祸了。

默想
信仰不要孤单，事奉更不要孤单。神的工人要寻找属灵的同伴，共同携手奔走天国路，要寻找属灵的同工，齐心努力传扬真道，让更多的人与我们同得属灵的福气


曾有过的属灵知己，后来也被自己的无能给赶走了...
现在跌倒也就只能有祸了。

我怀念的

The past will always catch up
No matter how far you thought you've ran away from it

心愛的人

华语：
跨萬重山 雲霧中飄飄蕩蕩
再見你、再見愛、再見了故鄉
顛簸中 左顧右盼
唯一不變的是毅然的倔強
回首不堪 往事雖由濃轉淡
想見你也許是奢侈的願望
掩著傷 卻流露假裝
或許你已經將過去全都遺忘

广东语：
其實我不會面對 其實我不忍離開
留住這心碎 眺望未來
只因我做什麼都不對

闽南语：
為著阮心愛的人 為著你心愛的仔
為著你的夢 來換阮心內的孤單

华语：
回首不堪 往事雖由濃轉淡
想見你也許是奢侈的願望
掩著傷 卻流露假裝
或許你已經將過去全都遺忘

广东语：
決心拋開你的袱累
仍知道方向風雨不改

闽南语：
思念你的聲
聽你的歌 
你甘會知影

人在江湖

初入江湖,膽小如鼠.只是小卒,任人擺佈.

為了前途,學會狠毒.性命不顧,殺出血路.

人在江湖,不由自主.雖很富足,也很無助

走入歧途,一片盲目.心中的苦,向誰傾訴?

往事回顧,歷歷在目.也曾糊塗,犯過錯誤.

一身傲骨,不肯認輸.起起伏伏,誰勝誰負?

幾番沉浮,終於醒悟.原來江湖,沒有勝負.

江湖的路,是場賭注.一旦下注,不能作主.

腳下的路,該向何處.不歸之路,不要重複.

Let me perish

If I'm the only one who's broken. And everybody else is safe because of that, I'll do it my way. I don't care if I'm broken beyond repair. I've already lost the will to live my life. 

Voids got bigger

I feel like I'm back to 2008, still living my meaningless life through games and pornography and doing nothing throughout the days.
All the emptiness kicks in again... Just that this kind it's ten-folded.
Wasting every single day, living like a dead, like a spiritual zombie.
Even though I found an angel that did heal my heart, but if I continue to be such a bum, I'm gonna lose her too. Like how I lost the woman I used to love so so much.......

This is not the kind of life I'd want to live again, and this isn't what I signed up for in 2010.
Told myself at the end of 2009 that my life would be changed in 2010, I'm either gonna get one last shot at the work-permit in Singapore, or work in my STUPID country, or (maybe) just go to Thailand.
The (maybe) worked out... For awhile... One and a half years in Thailand, great experiences... But now I have to come back...
This "test" in Singapore is really void-ing me out.

I didn't sign up for this...

我爱他

他的輕狂留在 某一節車廂
地下鐵裡的風 比回憶還重
整座城市一直等著我
有一段感情還在漂泊

對他唯一遺憾 是分手那天
我奔騰的眼淚 都停不下來
若那一刻重來 我不哭
讓他知道我可以很好

*我愛他 轟轟烈烈最瘋狂
我的夢 狠狠碎過卻不會忘
曾為他 相信明天就是未來
情節有多壞 都不肯醒來

我愛他 跌跌撞撞到絕望
我的心 深深傷過卻不會忘
我和他 不再屬於這個地方
轉載來自
最初的天堂 最終的荒唐*

如果還有遺憾 又怎麼樣呢
傷了痛了懂了 就能好了嗎
曾經依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我愛他 轟轟烈烈最瘋狂
我的夢 狠狠碎過卻不會忘
逃不開 愛越深越互相傷害
越深的依賴 越多的空白
該怎麼去愛

如果還有遺憾 是分手那天
我奔騰的眼淚 都停不下來
若那一刻重來 我不哭
讓他知道我可以很好

Like a Soldier

I'm supposed to be the soldier who never blow his composure
Even though I hold the weight of the whole world on my shoulder
I ain't supposed to show it, my crew ain't supposed to know it
Even though it means going toe-to-toe with devil it don't matter
I'd never drag them to battles that I can handle
Unless I absolutely have to I'm supposed to set an example
I need to be the leader, my crew looks for me to guide 'em
Even if something ever does pop off, I'm supposed to be beside 'em
But there's this negativeness that I'd tried to squash it, it was too late to stop it
There's a certain line you just don't cross and I crossed it
I heard it says negative things and I just lost it
It was crazy, this sickness went way beyond some primary and secondary school's depressions
And even though the battle was won, I feel like I've lost it
I spent too much energy on it, honestly I'm exhausted
And I'm so caught in it I feel like I'm the only one who caused it
This ain't what I'm in Christianity for, it's not why I got in it
It was never my objective for someone to get hurt
Why would I wanna destroy something I help build?
It wasn't my intentions, my intentions was good
I went through my whole relationship without ever thinking of no.2
And that was just out of respect for not being a jerk
And promising about something that I knew nothing about
Plus Pastors told me stay out, this just wasn't what I can decieded
So I did, I just fell back, prayed and gritted my teeth
While until one day, I met this angel who literally saved my life
Like "WOW!" I didn't knew I could ever come back alive!
And this thing isn't just my imagination
But still knowing this thing could pop off at any minute cause.....