Thank God that He gave us such a clear cut commandments and mission.

Three things to do throughout my whole life:

1. Love the Lord, my God with all my heart, mind, body, and soul.
2. Love one another.
3. Make disciples of all nation.

Merry, merry Christmas...

Lonely, lonely Christmas...

James 1:2-4
Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing.



The best thing is neither to seek nor seek to avoid troubles but to follow Christ and take the bitter with the sweet as it may come.

Whether we are happy or unhappy at any given time is not important. That we be in the will of God is all that matters.
We may safely leave with Him the incident of heartaches or happiness. He will know how much we need of either or both.

Because of her, this is the first time I've experienced the tears of joy...

Although desires so much to say it, but didn't propose it... Because I still think that I am not ready...
Not ready to answer the questions that he might ask...

Sorry for being so straight forward and insensitive... But thank you for letting me know!

Next Christmas...

我已經決定跟隨主耶穌 (x3)
義無反顧，義無反顧，

縱無人願意，我仍要跟隨 (x3)
永不倒退，永不倒退。

世界在背後，十架在前頭 (x3)
永不回頭，永不回頭。

The BEST patient exam conductor in my whole world is: My father

Please be patient with me as I am still learning to be patient.
Thank you for being so patient with me so far, and that's why I'm still trying hard to learn patience.

Anger management course HOME edition starts 4 days ago.
So far, I've failed twice in the practical theory.
Need to pray real hard and think of God's Word real much to pass that.

As the church camp is coming, the theme of the camp; The Direction of the Heart fits so nicely with my current heart.

Whether it's me growing old and getting more and more empty towards many things, or, perhaps it's just me with my weird problems.

Anyway, without God, my heart is not just a maze, but also a no exit maze. And it's all just meaningless because in the end I will just stuck inside and die.

Praise be to God for His is the way. Praise Him...

I pray that she will have more patience to be courage
and I will have more courage to be patient...

S
A
D

I just want to go home...

I guess I'm really bad at communicating... Other wise I would have understand others feelings better, and they would understand mine better...

I guess I should just hold it down and tape it with my tears...
Because no one else cares...

There are days of silent sorrow
In the seasons of our life;
There are wild despairing moments.
There are hours of mental strife;
There are times of stony anguish,
When the tears refuse to fall;
But the waiting time, my sister,
Is the hardest time of all...
We can bear the heat of conflict,
Though the sudden, crushing blow,
Beating back our gathered forces,
For a moment lay us low;
We may rise again beneath it
None the weaker for the fall,
But the waiting time, my sister,
Is the hardest time of all.

I can feel the ignition of the fire in my heart once again.

I pray that I will be overwhelmed with the Spirit of God and to go make disciple of all nation.

Can't wait to go back to Singapore and to the Malaysia church camp so that I can be used by the Lord to spread His gospel, bringing people to faith; the first and the second level of faith, and more citizens in the Kingdom of God.

Lord, I want to be used by You greatly, and I know it start by me with the heart and action to do so first, then You will draw close to me. I give my whole life unto serving and glorifying You, my God.

I hope to have an anteater as a pet...

They're cute
They're nice
And they EAT ALL THE STUPID ANTS AND TERMITES! YEAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Maybe next time I will get one anteater and a Chameleon as my pets~

WEEEEEeeeEEeEEEEeEEeEEEEE~~~~

(Just another childish post with a crazy dream that might not come true at all. But wait, I'm in Thailand aren't I? Sure is not impossible~ :D)

Overwhelmed with passion...

Don't let anyone think less of you because you are young. Be an example to all believers in what you say, in the way you live, in your love, your faith, and your purity. Until I get there, focus on reading the Scriptures to the church, encouraging the believers, and teaching them.

Give your complete attention to these matters. Throw yourself into your tasks so that everyone will see your progress. Keep a close watch on how you live and your teaching. Stay true to what is right for the sake of your own salvation and the salvation of those who hear you.
(1 Timothy 4:12-13, 15-16)

Direc teaching for me to hold on...

It feels so good to be clean from the inside out!

How do I know it? Because I've experienced it before so many times!

When you're renewed by the Lord, when you clear all the rubbish out of your mind, body and soul!

Lord, please clear the rubbish that is building and rotting inside my mind, body and soul... In Jesus' name, amen.

孤单是一个人的狂欢
狂欢是一群人的孤单

An empty street
An empty room
A hole inside my heart
I'm all alone
The room are getting smaller...



一个人享受寂寞.....

Thanks to all my friends... Because of them, my birthday is a happy one ever since 2 years ago~

Praise the Lord for preserving my life for twenty-one years~
And gave me eternal life, and a renewed life.

Here's what I got today for my birthday present!

First: Ron gave me a green Lahu sling bag with a card! That's my favorite present of all!
Second: One box of 26 packet of Jack Fruit cake with white cream!
Third: Three packets of titbits which consist of one, unknown brand corn, and two packets of Lays!
Fourth present: A free size blue shorts!
Fifth present: A XL Chiang Rai shirt with an elephant image on it!
Sixth present: From Pi-che lem and wife is, 8 pieces of bread, 15 packets of cocoa wafer coated chocolate flavour, and 12 sticks of fish sticks!

Thanks be to God!

You guys probably wouldn't believe this but, I seriously missed all of you...

All my homies...

I've written/thought of some to-do list when I'm back next month~ But only got 2 weeks plus, and church camp, I think left only one week to do em all...

I'm on cloud 9~~~~

But she's on cloud 10~~~~

Nov 22 faster comeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!




(Long time never post such a kiddish post liao.... But nevertheless, I'm very happy!!!)

I am rather upset of the stupid visa problem happening now... So now perhaps I can only go back to Singapore for only two weeks plus and have to come back.

First thing I need to do now is to put out the fire in me.

The fact that I can calmly type out my feelings on this blog now is consider good liao...

I...cannot wait....to see you again.....

晴天...？还是霹雳...?

从前从前有个人爱你很久
但偏偏风渐渐把距离吹得好远...

A little wish

Will be going to Lahu mountain tomorrow, and gonna teach them dance... Three totally, but I've only learnt one and are still not good and familiar with it...
I've got only 7 days to teach them all three... Don't know if can make it or not...

Anyway, I have a little wish, that is this year or perhaps still have next year, I can have my final dance in Charis~ Ain't gonna dance on stage no more when I go to the Bible college yo... Haha~

ahh... I missed firework so much... T.T

Meant for each other

Pen: I'm terribly sorry my dear liquid paper...

Liquid paper: Huh? Why? Why are you apologizing?

Pen: Because every time I made a mistake, you will have to cover it for me, and thus resulting you to lose some part of yourself...

Liquid paper: Yeah... But even though I can cover for you, it is still not perfect, the spot that we've made a mistake of is never the same again... But seriously, I don't mind losing my part for you my dear pen...
There will be a day when both of us are emptied, but never worry! Our Lord will always refill us with new water(ink & liquid), and we will always help each other out! As long as we stay obedient under our Lord's care, we will always be able to be of use to Him until the day we are dead. :)

The Tiger and the Lioness

Once upon a time, there was a Tiger and a Lioness who fall in love with each other... And they got married, and live happily ever after~

-The End-

Missing my beloved

Nothing can make up for the absence of someone whom we love.
It is nonsense to say that God fills the gap; He doesn't fill it, but on the contrary, He keeps it empty and so helps us to keep alive our former communion with each other, even at the cost of pain. The dearer and richer our memories, the more difficult the separation. But gratitude changes the pangs of memory into a tranquil joy. The beauties of the past are borne, not as a thorn in the flesh, but as a precious gift in themselves.

Expect too little of Him

Filled with a strange new hope they came,
The blind, the leper, the sick, the lame.
Frail of body and spent of soul...
As many as touched Him were made whole.

In every tongue was the Healer's name,
Through all the country they spread His fame.
But doubt clung tight to his wooden crutch
Saying, "We must not expect too much."

Down through the ages a promise came,
Healing for sorrow and sin and shame,
Help for the helpless and sight for the blind,
Healing for body and soul and mind.

The Christ we follow is still the same,
With blessings that all who will may claim.
But how often we miss Love's healing touch
By thinking, "We must not expect too much."

想念是会呼吸的痛....

A little pain

気づいて
I'M HERE WAITING FOR YOU
今とは違う未来があっても
I'M HERE WAITING FOR YOU
叫び続けて
きっと心は　つなぐ糸をたぐってる

一起走到

是否還記得　從前美麗的天色
那時天很藍　我們的未來都在不遠地方晴朗著
一切都變了　生命不只是快樂
遥远地方分离我們　还要等多少年呢？
但誰說不能　肩並著肩站穩
我們靠主的大爱創造　讓新的世界誕生

(CHORUS)
在我心中我知道　這是永恆的長跑
好不容易　來到這裡　明天還要追更多榮耀
把自己角色扮演好　全力以赴每一秒
和我的家人和我的朋友　向著目標手牽手　一起走到

這又是起點　我們有一樣心願
當我們祷告　狂風巨浪也不能阻擋我們走向前
誰害怕改變　只要緊握著信念
心中有夢沒有遙遠　跨出去就在瞬間
但誰說不能　肩並著肩站穩
我們靠主的大爱創造　讓新的世界誕生

Radiant of the Lord

I close both locks below the window
I close both eyes and walk away
Sometimes God's road aren't so simple
Sometimes goodbye's the only way

And the road will be set for you
The path has been set for you
And the radiant of the Lord
Will embrace your world in grace
And the road will be set for you

Some cards and songs on this Sunday
Your friends all bid for you away
Sometimes beginnings aren't so simple
Sometimes goodbye's the only way

And the road will be set for you
The path has been set for you
And the radiant of the Lord
Will embrace your world in grace
And the road will be set for you

And the radiant of the Lord
Will embrace your world in grace
And the road will be set for you

And the radiant of the Lord
Will embrace your world in grace
And the road will be set for you

Send me, I'll go

我又听见主的声音说：“我可以差遣谁呢？谁肯为我们去呢？”我说：“我在这里，请差遣我！” (以赛亚书 6:8)

Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?" And I said, "Here am I. Send me!" (Isaiah 6:8)

Egotism

It's 10:19 AM in the morning...as I was relaxing for a bit, preparing the outing coming this Saturday, my dad opens the door...as usual... I thought he was going to ask the same few questions again... But not today.

He is pissed. That's what I can clearly see and feel from him. But as we carry on the conversation, oh, maybe not we, but mainly him, I see another hidden emotion behind his eyes...

He is hurt. His pride is hurt. For all my years even since I can recall, I've never seen my father held tears in his eyes, not to even mention about crying.
Self-admiration, haughtiness, egotism...that's my father. Normally.
But today, he is upset...by his own sister...

"We've been looked down!" This is the summary of his message. As he was whining about the "fakefulness" of my 姑姑, which is his little sister, his eyes is filled with tears... Tears of disappointment...anger...and sadness...

Well, "Whatever a man sows, that he will also reap." Galatians 6:7 is what on my spiritual calendar tells me today. My aunt mocked my father while he is talking bad things about my 大伯，which is his big brother. My father say sarcastically about how he used to bad-mouth his big brother with his little sister, who, was once the closest sibling to my father. But instead, my aunt mocked him back and tease him regarding his failure of marriage and life...my father seems to have lost all his siblings, and left with anger and bitterness.

But as we're talking, he seems to be proud of his first son, who is going to be a missionary co-worker in Thailand soon... And he sure is very good at comforting himself... Which is what he always would do. Try to evaluate own self and to belittle others to comfort himself...

你快乐所以我快乐...

"Obedience to the call of Christ nearly always costs everything to two people- the one who is called, and the one who loves that one." - Oswald Chambers

Despair

Lord, I'm totally messed up...only You can clean me up... Please clean me up if You're willing...if not there's no reason for me to live any more...In Jesus' name I pray, amen.

A Brand New Look

Finally edited my blog after a long time of "wanting" to do it.

I like my new blogskin!

Lord, let me know if I'm in Your will, so that I can have faith sticking with it. Even it is a slow start... Amen.

爱与喜欢的差别

喜欢，是一种心情。

爱，是一种感情。

喜欢，是一种直觉。

爱，是一种感觉。

喜欢，可以停止。

爱，没有休止。

喜欢一个人，特别自然。

爱一个人，特别坦然。

Feelings fade, love stay

Even though we might not feel

love each and every day

But it will still be there

and never fade away

Just like the fireworks

bloom brightly and fading out

At times our love's so strong

other times it is seldom felt

In those times of wondering

when love is placed in doubt

We must only remember

our love has not run out

God in all His splendour

knows just how we feel

He knows true love goes deeper

than our feelings that seem real

So don't be depending

on feelings every day

Love is always there

but feelings fade away

Like a lily among thistles

is you among the girls

seal me over your heart

until the right time has occurs

If you get there before I do

If you get there before I do...
Don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through,
I don't know how long I'll be...
But I'm not gonna let you down!
Darling, wait and see...
And between now and then ‘til I see you again,
I'll be loving you...

Love, me

Lonely

I feel that there's no one capable of giving me good advice or instructions.
No one to guide me and then when I did something not pleasing to their sight they just start yapping at me.

I have a father who can't solve my problem but only bring problems to me. I can't tell him anything, nothing major in my life I can talk to him about but to face myself.

I have a mother who support me...well, but I really do hope that she can give me good advice too...

I do not want to take things into my own hands even though most of the times I am so tempted to do so.
I pray that the Lord will guide me, on every single day of my lives.

Lord, please guide me...I don't want to do this on my own...

What you are is God's gift to you;
what you do with yourself is your gift to God.

-Danish Proverb

Time to burn

My Flower has set alight! My fireworks has displayed!

Now it's time to wake up from my slumber, and respond by burning with all my might!

For the Lord!

With God, all things are possible. Matthew 19:26

The Vic Ultimatum

The supreme Vic Hetrot send a ultimatum to Victor Teh, that he shall be exercuted, and let the Lord Almighty reign over his mind, body and soul.

The Vic supremacy

The supreme power, the authority of Vic is that he has the honor to be God's children. Which is chain-related to his identity.
DO NOT ABUSE THIS SUPREME AUTHORITY, VIC HETROT!

The Vic identity

I'm God's children
I'm God's servant.
I'm a Christian.
I'm a member and co-worker of Charis.
I'm an assitant leader in my cell group.
I'm a brother to all my brothers and sisters in Charis.
I'm a student of them all.
I'm a teacher of two students.

I'm son of Pang Siau Mui
I'm son of Teh Keoi hooi
I'm elder brother of Vision Teh
I'm elder brother of Isabelle Teh
I'm the spiritual leader in my family.
I'm Victor Teh, (reborn name: Vic Hetrot)
I wrote this to remind myself of my identity, so that I could play my character well.

I simply love firework!!!

I not stupid 2

我们肆无忌惮我们成群结党
我们目无尊长对什么事都不满
看着我们的成长只会制造麻烦
我们就是一无是处你又能怎样
我们don't give a damn那看不起的眼光
我们什么都不是我们什么都不管
我们之间为什么会渐渐地没有语言
我们之间有道墙
学校老师束手无策父母臭骂我们不会想
这个社会的标准已经超出了我们这年纪的有限想象
只认定会读书就一定是好孩子的榜样
别以为看不起我们就告诉自己比人家强
有多少人关心我们为何会走错迷失方向
又有谁会替我们想想苹果为何变烂
其实我们也曾努力要争取所有人的称赞
扪心自问你们究竟给了我们多少希望
泪水已经流干,前途也很渺茫
迷失的灵魂,我们应该怎么办
惩罚我们就是堂皇的协助成长
然后让我们一生绝望
有些人幸运天生没有战场
我们一出世就是自己孤军作战
站在十字路口的风雨中呐喊
不要让我们一生绝望
学校老师束手无策父母臭骂我们不会想
这个社会的标准已经超出了我们这年纪的有限想象
只认定会读书就一定是好孩子的榜样
别以为看不起我们就告诉自己比人家强
有多少人关心我们为何会走错迷失方向
又有谁会替我们想想苹果为何变烂
其实我们也曾努力要争取所有人的称赞
扪心自问你们究竟给了我们多少希望
泪水已经流干,前途也很渺茫
迷失的灵魂,我们应该怎么办
惩罚我们就是堂皇的协助成长
然后让我们一生绝望
有些人幸运天生没有战场
我们一出世就是自己孤军作战
站在十字路口的风雨中呐喊
不要让我们一生绝望
泪水已经流干,前途也很渺茫
迷失的灵魂,我们应该怎么办
惩罚我们就是堂皇的协助成长
然后让我们一生绝望
有些人幸运天生没有战场
我们一出世就是自己孤军作战
站在十字路口的风雨中呐喊
不要让我们一生绝望
小孩不笨2主题曲

This is really a nice song... Remind me of how I used to feel and how I used to be...but the best part is when I remember God's miracluos in my life...that changed me... Thank You Lord! Hallelujiah!