Someone requested me to post... Anyway, I've been so busy lately...not much time+things to post about anyway... Tomorrow going to thai...hope that this one in a thousand years family trip would be meaningful... Surely wish that I/we could have a deep sharing with our mother regarding salvation of Christ... That she may be more open up to it...and receive this wonderful precious gift...

Dream COMING true. (To be continue...)

I am very thankful today...that I'm able to witness my brother, my sister, and my cousin's baptism... Come to think of it, it seems really like my dream is slowly coming true... When I recall back one year ago...I was still worried for my brother's salvation for he doesn't really care about coming to church...it's like no big deal for him then... But as he slowly stable down...and starts to become more active in our church's activities...start coming to tq, start helping out (note: sometimes only) and now finally, helped out more...(yeah got increase I know!) and he is one of the sanfu team...

My cousin...he is a surprise actually... As I was worrying about his salvation, about his relationship with God then...I could only talk to him sometimes on msn, and of course, pray for him... That day, I was really shocked, after I rebuked him for his attitude and manners towards his mother, I didn't expect at all he would reponse to me this way...he asked me about what time my church starts, and he says he want to consider coming... I thought he'd be rather careless, but no, he didn't. And now seeing his serving in our church...in our sanfu team...and today, he officially commit in our church through baptism... I am truly thankful...

My sis...just a few months back...the spoiled brat that doesn't want to wake up for Sabbath no matter how we call her to wake up... The wondering girl who was still thinking which church to commit into... I was also very worried... But as I keep praying for her...(and my bro, maybe?) she slowly improved by starting to come for service...then after that accepted to have ba ke, and now, baptist in our church! Not only baptist, I see that she is getting more involved in our church's activities, like acting in a skit...dancing...and she is currently designing our youth camp's T-shirt!! I can only say... Praise be to God! For He is faithful. Glory be to God! For He shows us grace and mercy... I thank God everytime I remember you.

Lord, kill me if I'd purposely sin against You...
And please guide me in Your truth, please grant me wisdom to know what's good and what's not... Amen.

我想,我等,我期待
未来却不能因此安排...

向左,向右,向前看
爱要拐几个弯才来...?

我看著路,梦的入口有点窄...
我遇见妳是最美丽的意外
终有一天我的谜底会揭开...

我要的爱

我要的爱 (你要的爱 male's version)

虽然经常梦见妳
还是毫无头绪
最近一直下着雨
今天是星期一
but I don`t know
妳在那里
虽然不曾怀疑妳
还是忐忑不定
谁是妳的那个唯一
原谅我怀疑自己
我明白
妳要的爱
会把妳宠坏
像一个小孩
只懂在我怀里坏
我要的爱
不只是依赖
要像个大男孩
风吹又日晒
生活自由自在...

Thank you, the person who put the Daily Bread paper inside my bag for me. :D

爱如潮水

不问你为何流眼泪
不在乎你心里还有谁
且让我给你安慰
不论结局是喜是悲
走过千山万水
在我心里你永远是那么美
既然爱了就不后悔
再多的苦我也愿意背
我的爱如潮水
爱如潮水将我向你推
紧紧跟随
爱如潮水它将你我包围

爱如潮水 by 张信哲

I think I'm getting old...but I really like the lyrics...

I am very sorry...but this is just too difficult to do.....so I am doing so badly...

I will keep trying...I know I am weak...

I have to become strong.....

Stronger.....

Stronger...

Proper Thanks

Decided to give proper thanks to those who celebrated and wanting to celebrate my birthday...

Thank You God!!! For EVERY SINGLE PERSONS AND THINGS THAT YOU'VE GAVE ME!!! THANK YOU LORD, that You're willing to forgive this wretch like me... Thank You for Your grace and mercy, Lord. Thank You... Hallelujiah!!!

Thank you Zhang Shimu! That you're willing to spend time to celebrate my birthday!!! And I am really grateful for the book you gave me... Thank you for everything, your teaching, your care and concern, your presence, your jokes. Thank you! (Yi Qi, can help me tell your mom if you're reading this!)

Thank you Cheng Ling!!! Even though you were so afraid of balloons, but yet you still is there at my celebration and went crazy there! Haha~ I'm really grateful for your gift (even though I haven't received it yet. lol) Thank you for everything!!! >,<

Thank you ah Mun (Wei Wen, Fion)!!! I don't know who planned for this celebration, but I guess you're surely one of them. Thank you sooo much!! :D

Thank you Charlene!!! For the effort of your videos!!! And...eh...erm...THANKS ANYWAY!!! Haha~

Thank you Melissa!!! For the NICE acting skills!!! I seriously didn't know at all!!! You can go join mediacorp liao!!! LOL!! Thank you for being my best friend!!! Even though we are not really that close. Lol.

Thank you Stacia!!! For being so funny sometimes!!! Hmmm...er....Thank you!!!

Thank you Darryl!!! Didn't expect that you'll be willing to join my birthday celebration! Thank you once again for your sandal!! And thanks for your advice sometimes~

Thank you Issacc!!! For willing to share with me your problems...hope that sometimes my advice could help you. But really hope that you won't have so many problems anymore...lol... Thanks!!!

Thank you Maxx!!! For willing to tell me that if I got anything, just call you, you will try your best to help...this is not easy to be done!!! Thank you for willing to be like this. :)

Thank you Malcom!!! Thank you for the offer of the job once again, but am sorry that I have to "tua" you and your aunt...lol hope that you will forgive me and thanks once agian!!

Thank you Yong!!! For being my cousin!!! Lol, forgive me cause sometimes I may "pao tou" you out things that you don't wanna share...but my intentions are mostly good you see...lol Thanks!!!

Thank you my little bro!!! No need say so much I guess...lol

Thank you Marcus!!! For your lameness and craziness sometimes!!! Lol

Here I want to give thanks to Wei Ling, Alan, Nat, and Chun Quan.

Thank you Wei Ling!!! For being my dearest teacher!!! For all your teachings, your advices, your care and concern. Thank you for the nice shirt you brought me!!! xD

Thank you Alan!!! For the things you've taught me by actions sometimes...you are very cute man...lol

Thank you Nat!!! For the gift, and for most things that you've done.

Thank you Chun Quan!!! For the nice dinner you treated me!!! And thank you so much for your time last time that you're willing to teach me and my bro...sorry that we have let you down... Thank you very much!!!

Thank you all who wished my happy birthday, this birthday of mine is really the happiest of all in my entire life!!! I'm really grateful to God that I'm able to know you all!!!

GRATEFUL

I AM SO HAPPY THAT I FEEL THAT I MUST POST MY FEELINGS NOW!!!

THANK YOU EVERYONE!!! THIS IS MY HAPPIEST BIRTHDAY EVER IN MY ENTIRE LIFE!! I'M REALLY SURPRISED BY YOU ALL!!!

BUT THERE IS SOME SAD PART IS THAT WL, NAT AND ALAN ARE NOT ABLE TO JOIN....
WELL, IF IT IS THE LORD'S WILL, THERE SURELY WILL BE ANOTHER CHANCE TO!

I THANK MY GOD FOR ALL OF YOU....:)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Love

אהבה היא חולה, עוד חסד; אהבה היא לא מקנא; אהבה היא לא עצבנית או רגיש, שאינם אסרטיבי,אהבה היא חולה, עוד חסד; אהבה היא לא מקנא; אהבה היא לא עצבנית או רגיש, שאינם אסרטיבי, ביישן לא ביישן לא לעשות משהו, לא מחפשים הטבות משלו, לא מתרגז בקלות, לא סופר את הרוע של אנשים, לא אוהב את העוול, רק כמו האמת; להגן תמיד, תמיד לתת אמון, תמיד תקווה, תמיד להיות סבלניים. האהבה היא לא הסוף.

Right here waiting

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

Oh can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy

Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive this romance
But in the end if I'm with you I'll take the chance

Oh can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy

Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you.....

For now, it shall be like this...

I'd be waiting for you.

Too holy...?

Lol, I suddenly remember what my bro and my cousin said last night.....and wanting to post it out here...

Yesterday as we were "celebrating" our grandma's birthday, my bro was using my cousin's computer to watch some videos from youtube. And one of it was some dance from Brown Eyed Girls' Abracadabra or w/e alibaba. As the dance is some sort of sexy dance, I warn both of them not to watch this kind of video too often, cause you'll never know when lust will come knocking on your heart, but they just brush me off with a simple remarks: "Walao...you're too holy liao..."
I replied them: "Is it wrong to be holy?" ...

As a Christian, we must never stop to pursue Christ-likeness...
"God did this so that men would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from each one of us." (Acts 17:27)

"Sow for yourselves righteousness, reap the fruit of unfailing love, and break up your unplowed ground; for it is time to seek the LORD, until he comes and showers righteousenss on you." (Hosea 10:12)

"You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." (Jeremiah 29:13)

It is really hard already to seek God, but still, I seek Him everyday... And I certainly do not want any other hindrance for me to seek Him...and lust is one of them guys, be careful...

"For everything in the world--the cravings of sinful man, the lust of his eyes and the boasting of what he has and does--comes not from the Father but from the world. The world and its desire pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever." (1 John 2:16-17)

God wants us to FLEE away from temptation, not FIGHT against it. Tell you all some secrets, I've been avoiding my eyes from seeing woman with sexy body, big boobs, sexy legs, pretty face, or whatever that MIGHT cause me to sin... You all too, should flee from it. That kind of video with woman wearing so little and shaking their ass isn't really very good...

You have heard that it was said, "Do not commit adultery." But I tell you that anyone who looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart. (Matthew 5:27-28)

What a day...

Slept only for like 1 and a half hour today...and of course, feels super duper tired throughout the day...and feeling giddy...

But was quite ashamed of myself after seeing Samantha in this state... She has been always carrying all the burdens herself that today, she finally burst out... And while we were listening to her, hearing what happened, as I was looking at her, I realized that I actually don't know this "woman" in front of me.....even though I know her name is Samantha, and she is my CG Leader, and she seems to be the quiet type...and that's all I know about her.....

I felt that I am truly a failure in building up relationships, in my family, in church, and in society. But now that I have already been a Christian for so long, it is really a shame that I'm still so useless...

It's time to build up relationships with my leaders, care more for them and encourage them more...

Well, after that (we) went to my aunt's house, to celebrate my grandma's birthday. And well, it's quite fun I suppose, having a gathering like this once in a while... And later on my bro gave me the present (they) brought! It's a Burberry for Men Weekend! (Even though I didn't heard before -.-) But hey! It smells super nice! Thank you so much guys! Wow....what a day....and I'm really giddy now...hope that I won't faint/fell asleep inside the bathroom while I'm showering...

My Compelling Vision

My Compelling Vision

At my memorial service someday, I hope my associates, friends, and family say, and actually believe, the following:

Victor loved his Lord and served Him faithfully to the end.

He loved his wife and cared for her, cherished her, and helped her become all that God created her to be. He helped her blossom! Like the flower that set alight, the fireworks.

He nurtured and loved his children (and possibly grand-children), and saw them all come to personal faith in Christ and begin their own journey toward maturity. He did all he could to live as their hero and role model.

He was a faithful steward of all the resources God entrusted to him, investing his time, money, and abilities for maximum Kingdom value.

(If I become a pastor.) He pastored his church with integrity and a commitment to the Word of God, always teaching and leading with excellence.

He was a lifelong learner, always pursuing Christlikeness and making progress until he died.

He loved people more than his personal pleasures and was willing to flex to serve the needs of others. (Like a rubber band!)

He achieved to the best of his God-given abilities yet stayed humble, always giving the glory to God for whatever was accomplished in his life.

He enjoyed life and rejoiced his way through its ups and downs.

Core Values

My own core values of CHARIS

C - Christ Jesus. Reminds us that He is always the core and head of our life and church.
H - Humility and honesty. Reminds us to be humble and honest in everything we do. Especially God's work.
A - Authenticity. Both in our person and practice. We want to be real and authentic in all we do.
R - Relevance. We want to be in touch with the culture and the "real world" of our congregation and our community.
I - Intercession. Always seeking for God's will and help. Pleading on behalf of another person will show that we are growing as a church.
S - Sensible. Whether it is regarding sins or the feelings of others. We need to be sensible.

A Key Paradox:

In order to be relevant, stay ancient.

In order to move forward, connect to the past.

In order to serve more people, first get away from everyone.

In order to speed up, first slow down.

In order to accomplish more, go take a break.

In order to make a statement, first be quiet and listen.

In order to get moving, make sure you are well anchored.

Summary: The secret to being effective in the now is staying connected to what is eternal.

Now that I have been assigned as assistant leader...I shall give it all my best...honoring God... Brothers and sisters, let us press on for His glory, for His people and for His work.

Woman are like rose. If you treat them well, they will bloom. But if you treat them badly. They will wither...

Koinonia: God's love expressed

Father, the hour has come. Glorify Your Son so that the Son may glorify You, just as You gave Him authority over all flesh; so that He may give eternal life to all You have given Him. This is eternal life: that they may know You, the only true God, and the One You have sent--Jesus Christ.
(John 17:1-3)

If we say, "We have fellowship with Him," and walk in darkness, we are lying and are not practicing the truth. But if we walk in the light as He Himself is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus His Son cleanses us from all sin.
(1 John 1:6-7)

The greatest evidence that a person has been born again, is their love for one another within the family.

Koinonia is the practical expression of God's love toward His people. I want us to become well acquainted with this word, because it is where God's love is manifest in real life. Koinonia is agape love in action. It is how we experience the fullness of God's love for His people and in His people. In a real sense koinonia is the essence of God's great salvation.

True Koinonia, in its fullest expression, can only be found in one place--the local church.
God is honored when a church demonstrates to a watching world the love that comes from Him.
Eternal life is not based on religion, but it is based on a relationship with God.
God's great salvation frees us from sin in order that we might be free to know Him. Some think that we are freed from sin in order that we might act right, yet God's desire is that we be right. Being right speaks of the heart; it speaks of the core of our existence.

The first and greatest commandment is to love God with all our heart, soul, mind, and strength.
Deut. 6:5 "Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength."
Matt. 22:37 "Jesus replied: "`Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.'"

I have found that many people are not sure what it means to be a Christian, not sure how to relate to God, and not sure how to relate to God's people. One of the most neglected aspects of God's great salvation is our fellowship with other believers. According to the Scriptures, it is spiritually impossible to have fellowship with God and, at the same time, be out of fellowship with God's people.

If a person claims to be in fellowship with God yet has broken relationships with other believers, what does the Bible call that person? A liar! Broken relationships with God's people are a symptom of a broken relationship with God. So if you see people at odds with one another, what is their problem? Their primary need is to be reconciled with God, and then God will help them to be reconciled with one another.

If a husband and wife have a broken relationship, what is their problem? Do they need marriage counseling? Possibly, but if you did marriage counseling, you better talk with them about their relationship to God. It is spiritually impossible to walk in the light as He is in the light and not have fellowship with one another.
The same is true between parents and children. How do you help a family member come back to God? You come back to God! When our relationship with him was strained, we had to get our lives right with God as the number one priority. But if your relationship to God is basically religious activity, you will drive people around you away. We confuse religious busyness with having fellowship with God, but they are not the same. In fact, our activity for God can often replace fellowship with God. And that will be reflected in the relationships we have with others.

Now that we have a small sample of what God's love has done for you, look at John 13:34-35: "A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another." Do you understand why we need to look at how God has loved us? It helps us understand how we should love one another.
God expects that we will forgive others in exactly the same way He forgives us.
"For if you forgive people their wrongdoing, your heavenly Father will forgive you as well. But if you don't forgive people, your Father will not forgive your wrongdoing" (Matt. 6:14-15).
And it is certainly true that our relationship with God will affect our relationship with one another in the church. If we refuse to forgive a brother/sister, the Lord will not forgive us.
I am convinced that much of the trouble among God's people today is they are still carrying years of sin on their shoulders when they thought they had been forgiven. Their unwillingness to forgive another has left them unforgiven and under the weight of their own sin. Futhermore, their growing accumulation of sin has created a barrier between them and God. That barrier has left them feeling distant from God, and that distance from God has brought deadness to their Spirit. That spiritual deadness has left them without hope and void of any real joy in life. That void has left them in despair and in the depths of depression--all because they were out of fellowship (koinonia) with another person in the family of God.
We must forgive as Christ has forgiven us.

Broken relationships with one another are a symptom of a previous broken relationship with God. It is our relationship with God that determines all other relationships in our life.
Love is the foundation of our relationships in the church.
As we grow in our relationship with God, we automatically grow in our relationship with other believers.
God's great salvation is best demonstrated when His love is being expressed among His people.
When Christ has a mature body of believers that is in fellowship with Him and one another, He can effectively do the work of the Father to touch a lost world.

When a church receives and distributes the love of God, they will experience above and beyond all that they could have imagined.
But when we are only busy doing things for God and yet we neglect time with God, the relationship falters. When our relationship with God falters, there is turbulence in the churches.
If our love for the Lord is neglected and we let the fire go out, it will soon be seen in our lives, especially our love relationships to others. This is true in every relationship in life.
When we lose koinonia in the church, we have lost our very life.
When we lose our love for God and one another, we no longer have a message of good news to give the world.

1 John 3:14 says, "We know that we have passed from death to life because we love our brothers. The one who does not love remains in death."

What will you do to help others know the love of Christ? What will you risk because you love your brother? Do you want to see the love of God flowing through your church? Then begin to love others as God has first loved you. Do you want God to be generous to your church? Then demonstrate a generous attitude to others in your church. You don't have to make koinonia happen; you need to walk with God and let Him produce koinonia in and through you.

Study questions for reflection and response:
1. From God's perspective, why is it important that the local church express koinonia?
2. Can a church truly be a church without koinonia?
3. How does unforgiveness affect koinonia in the church?
4. What effect does koinonia in the church have on the community in which it is located?
5. What are some practical ways you can express koinonia with your church family?
6. How do you maintain koinonia in the church?

Here is this song by Jackie Chan that I want to change abit of the scenerio that is like us talking to Jesus, and Jesus talking to us...

Us: 解开我...最神秘的等待...星星坠落风在吹动....

Jesus: 终于再将你融入怀中.....两颗心颤抖...相信我...不变的真心...千年等待有我承诺....无论经过多少的寒冬, 我决不放手....

Jesus: 每一夜被心痛穿越.....思念永没有终点....

Us: 早习惯了孤独相随...我微笑面对... 相信我...祢选择等待...再多苦痛也不闪躲..只有你的温柔能解救...无边的冷漠....让爱成为祢我心中那永远盛开的花..穿越时空决不低头永不放弃的梦..

让爱成为你我心中那永远盛开的花..唯有真爱追随你我穿越无尽时空...

爱是心中唯一不变美丽的

The Family: God has no orphans

Here is something I'd like to share about the book I've read, "Experiencing God together", hoping that my sharings would at least help to improve our relationship with God.

Many accept the gifts of salvation because they want to go to heaven when they die, but they do not understand God's total plan and purpose in salvation and the unparalleled cost to God to grant it.
Our relationship with God is personal, but it was never meant to be private.
We cannot live our faith in isolation; that would run contrary to the purpose of God's salvation.
We can claim to love God all we want, but if we are not intimately connected to the people of God, we are deceiving ourselves.
Those who choose to stand aloof or refuse to be involved in a church have a serious heart problem.
Salvation brings believers into a relationship with God and His people, and both relationships are crucial.
Whereas sin leads to independence and self-centeredness, salvation leads to radical interdependence and Christ-centeredness.
The more we grow in our relationship to the Lord, the more intimate and loving we grow in our relationships to one another.
(Sanfu peeps, note this--->) If God's people are not practicing everything Christ has commanded, they will be ineffective in evangelism. But those who are walking in an obedient love relationship with their Lord will naturally share the good news of the gospel with convincing power.
Evangelism was a by-product of a people in love with their Lord.
When the people of God were taught how to practice the truth of God's Word in their lives, evangelism was explosive. Which is why we learn the Evangelism Explosion (Sanfu) for.
The key to this was the condition of God's people, not just a better church growth strategy (2 Chronicles 7:14) "if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land."
The key to touching our world is for the people of God to walk in a right relationship with Him and one another. (John 17:20-23) "My prayer is not for them alone. I pray also for those who will believe in me through their message, that all of them may be one, Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me. I have given them the glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one: I in them and you in me. May they be brought to complete unity to let the world know that you sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me."
If all we work at is building our church to the neglect of the Kingdom, we are neglecting a major dimension of God's great salvation.

Study Question for Reflection and Response
1. What is the difference between being saved and living in God's great salvation?
2. How does God's great salvation relate to your involvement in a local church?
3. Can an individual experience the fullness of God's great salvation outside the fellowship of a church family?
4. How does the love between Christians impact the effectiveness of evangelism?
5. Have you been so focused on your church that you have neglected your responsibilities within the kingdom of God?

How can you refuse Him now....?

There's a story old...

That has often been told...

Of how our savior died.....

As they nailed his hands,

He cried they don't understand...

As the blood flowed from his side......

How can you refuse him now?

How can you refuse him now?

How can you turn away from his side...?

With tears in his eyes,

On the cross where he died,

How can you refuse Jesus now....?

As he hung there on the tree,

he prayed for you...prayed for me...

There was no one his pain to ease.....

Before he died, he faintly cried,

"Father, forgive them please..."

The second time I listen to this song...it moves me to tear.... I can't upload the video here...those who want to listen: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sIgKcJDjWvk# It is a really meaningful song...

Still tired

The One-day Camp is overall not bad... I don't know about the sisters but we shared quite deeply among our brothers... I'm quite unset about the sharing I shared. Cause I've got no enough time to share my main point... But well, I know I still have a lot to learn. Anyway, got a sudden news from my father just now that he brought 2 puppy back home... Hmmm...I saw the puppys, quite cute! But I ain't gonna clean their shit.... Probably just bring them out for a scroll when I'm free. Well, this is what I wanna say now.

The Coming Trial

I guess what ever that will come, will eventually come...

The 3 months of NS next year will be a great test... Not much to the physical I guess...but the Spiritual... I pray to God that I will stay in a love relationship with Him cause I probably can't go to church for a whole 3 months, and I don't know if I could bring my Bible into the camp... But hopefully I could bring someone to Christ during the camp! This is what I aim for. For what I hope for...I certainly want things to go smoothly inside...I don't wanna beat up someone or letting someone beating me up inside... Pray to God that I will have the patience to endure, but better, the peace inside with those mates...

If you all are willing, please pray for me. Thank you.

What a meaningful date I had with her today.... She is sooooo nice la! And she really did gave me some good advice too! This is a really wonderful dinner I've had with her....... I'm really looking forward to the next dinner with her...













(Oh ya btw, did I gave you guys the wrong signal thinking it was some sort of dating with some girl? Hahaha! Too bad! She's married! And she'd already had a 4 years old daughter that is quite tall! She is my favorite teacher in school... Today is really a HAPPY TEACHER DAY I've ever had!)

Some advice.

If you're getting lazy, read James. If your faith is below par, read Paul. If you're impatient, consider the book of Job. If you're a little strong-headed, go and see Moses. If you're weak-kneed, have a look at Elijah. If there is no song in your heart, listen to David.

Got Paper

These brothers passing me and they all rolling fly coups.
They throw some (D)iamonds on but they still ain't got the truth
They blow their cheese on it then they die and what's the use
I'm so secure in Jesus all I want in life is fruit
I don't need no fast money NOPE dont need a fast car
Yeah the faith is a race but i't ain't a nascar
Homie you and God got beef
Cause you keep chasin money like them hundreds got feet
Buddy wanna be rich but even 50 done said
That he still feel hungry even tho he got bread
Make em throw away they life got em runnin from feds
Love of money's like crack both of em will leave you dead
When you die and face God aint nothing left to be said
Instead of Chasing the truth you take a lie to the head
And homie all I can do tell you what Jesus said
Repent and turn from your sin cause the kingdom of God's at hand.

You've got money, you've got paper, so what who cares?
You've got money, you've got paper, I've got Jesus baby! x2

people they want cheese american mozzerella
the enemies rat trap might snap any second
I'm like that dude in matthew who after finding a treasure
gave all he had to get it thats a real go getta
people dying over wood grain chrome and some leather
They got expensive tastes but the faith tastes better
i know the ice wet but the living water wetter
but dont believe me read the 13 letters
or you can torah the gospel and all the prophets
But homie I promise you'll never profit chasing profit
Now look at 1 Timothy 6 it's so clear
you chase the money and wind up in a snare
now a vow of poverty no it's not there
but you pursue God the rest he takes care
you don't step on his back in order to get rich
if you do then you're in sin and ordered to REPENT
you come come to Christ for God You come to Daddy for worship
He aint take that Cross to fund your vanity purchase
even though we all agree that death is certain
it seems we believe there's banks beyond earth (THATS CRAZY)

Money dough cash paper
if it was a woman I promise I used to date her
now that we broke up she be callin ya boy a hater
Cause all I do is use her for Golorifying my maker
my treasures up in heaven Christ is my satisfaction
if I was broke I'd be richer than folk who never had em
God is the Gospel not a new bentley
was empty and he gave us life and that's plenty
get me...homie I could spend six centries
simply saying I'm satisfied in the sensie
an it's sickening, that knowing God aint enough
we gotta tell em they can get rich quickly
now this is heresy false it's not true
2nd corinthians chapter 8 and verse 2
read that and please believe that
forget c-note man they pockets was e-flat and still had it

I'm a Saint

Used to be where I could only trust me and myself
and then that Heavy metal devil that could send me straight to hell with it
Thought it was no helping it my selfishness was celibate
I sell a bit but I make sure I don't sit up in that cell a bit
I'd yell a bit but only when hurt came for certain
Illiterate ain't know that the word came
But then the word hit me and unblinded me
Jesus paid a price for me that's how I gained the right to be the son of God I'd like to be
Changed my heart and gave me a desire for his work man
Kill me if you want but I'm gone get back out that dirt man
Not yet what I'm gonna be but not what I used to be
Bless his name forever who would chose me and start using me
Used to love my sinning full of greed full of hate
I might say that I love Jesus but that talk was really fake
I'd be lustin for your cousin if it wasnt for His Grace
Yeah He took me outta nothing and He made ya boy a saint


Yeah they tell me sugar coat it, dump it down but I can't
Might as well could deny the Jesus and be ashamed but I ain't...I'm a Saint
Til the day I see the grave I'm going hard in the paint
It's the only We hope we got thats why I'll die for the faith. I'm a Saint

You got to understand Jesus agreed back in eternity
to sign a bloody covenant and take a deadly turn for me
He ain't just agree he fulfilled it to the death of em
he took that bloody cup that's meant for us str8 to the neck and yeah
he swallowed all that bitterness that pain and affliction
ain't a soul in hell with pain comparable to this one
brought me to repentance homie I'm blood purchased
and daily I'm conformed to his holiness so I worship
Jesus finished the work he resurrected on High
that means he beat death and best believe so will I
see some believe they can fly but I believe I can die
resurrect leave the earth and live forever with God
He will march through the sky while the stars sing his praises
the planets dance around and the universe is amazed
and me I get to gaze upon his beauty for days
man if I could be anything baby I'd be a saint

Now you might think I'm crazy like some kinda urban misfit
but first I hated church I'd only pray to give my wish list
I'd be just like you doing my dancing in the club folk
I promise I ain't it choose it I was chosen to loved on
eyes low blowing dro that's the life I used to know
but Jesus chopped me up and slowed me down just like that Houston flow
a dead man until somebody hit me with the hardest facts
the Gospel hit my heart I guess that's what you call a heart attack
I'm looking at Ephesians 2 like what did Jesus see in you
nothin by his grace he chose to love on folk like me and u
and I don' t understand it homie I never planned it
I was chasing money and fast women and man
then I met the great I am/son of man or the lamb
snatched ya boy up outta hell/ and got working for his plans
Used think I was the man/til I met em
all that arrogance and pride I dead em and fo'get em/ I'm a Saint!

No longer confused

My guess and doubts are cleared~ Thanks be to God!

Confusing....

Now I am confused... what to do now? Hmmmm...

If we aren't really ready for commitment, what's the point of getting into intimate and romantic relationships?

Man enough to answer

Lena Lathrop's poem.

Do you know you have asked for the costliest thing
Ever made by the Hand above?
A woman's heart, and a woman's life--
And a woman's wonderful love.

Do you know you have asked for this priceless thing
As a child might ask for a toy?
Demanding what others have died to win,
With the reckless dash of a boy.

You have written my lesson of duty out,
Manlike, you have questioned me.
Now stand at the bars of my woman's soul
Until I shall question thee.
You require your mutton shall always be hot,
Your socks and your shirt be whole;
I require your heart be true as God's stars
And as pure as His heaven your soul.

You require a cook for your mutton and beef,
I require a far greater thing;
A seamstress you're wanting for socks and shirts--
I look for a man and a king.

A king for the beautiful realm called Home,
And a man that his Maker, God,
Shall look upon as He did on the first
And say: It is very good."

I am fair and young, but the rose may fade
From this soft young cheek one day;
Will you love me then 'mid the falling leaves,
As you did 'mong the blossoms of May?

Is your heart an ocean so strong and true,
I may launch my all on its tide?
A loving woman finds heaven or hell
On the day she is made a bride.

I require all things that are grand and true,
All things that a man should be;
If you give this all, I would stake my life
To be all you demand of me.

If you cannot be this, a laundress and cook
You can hire and little to pay;
But a woman's heart and a woman's life
Are not to be won that way.

"To girls reading this, I pray this poem serves as a reminder to keep your standards high. Require all things that are "grand and true." As you consider the possibility of marriage, don't lower your standards for a moment; any guy who asks you to do so isn't worth your time.

And to the guys, we have our work cut out for us, don't we? My hope for us is that we would truly grasp the costliness, the pricelessness, of a woman's love. It is no small thing, no game, to invite a girl to accompany us through life. May we earn the right to make such a request by striving to be men of integrity--men whose hearts are oceans "strong and true." Then, and only then, should we stand at the bars of a woman's soul and ask to gain entrance." By Joshua Harris, the author of "I kissed dating goodbye", and "Boy meets Girl".

What is marriage?

Marriage is the first institution (Genesis 2:22-24).
"Then the Lord God made a woman from the rib he had taken out of the man,
and he brought her to the man. The man said, "This is now bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh;
she shall be called 'woman', for she was taken out of man." For this reason a man will leave his father
and mother and be united to his wife, and they will become one flesh." It was ordained before the family
before civil government--even before the church.

Marriage depicts the supernatural union between Jesus and the church (Ephesians 5:31-32)
"For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife,
and the two will become one flesh." This is a profound mystery--
but I am talking about Christ and the church." One of the most beautiful analogies God uses to define
His relationship with us is that of a marriage. To grasp this is both inspirational and sobering.
People should be able to look at our marriages and say, "So that's what the church is like? That's what
it means to have a relationship with Jesus?" God intends to cultivate the same abundant, unconditional
love between a husband and wife as He Himself has for us. Marriage is a profound and marvelous mystery
established by God for His glory.

Marriage is the event God has selected to consummate all of time (Revelation 19:7)
"Let us rejoice and be glad and give him glory! For the wedding of the Lamb has come,
and his bride has made herself ready." God has had at least two thousand years to make preparations for
honoring His Son at the end of the age. It's significant that God has not scheduled the coronation of
the Lamb or the graduation of the Lamb. Instead He has ordained the marriage supper of the Lamb. Why
marriage? Because it speaks of union and intimacy as nothing else does. The greatest thing God could
plan for Jesus was to present Him with His radiant Bride. No wonder we are so deeply moved when a bride
walks down the aisle. Marriage is a holy and wonderful gift. And one day we will be called to account
for our stewardship of this gift.

Marriage is to be held in honor (Hebrews 13:4) "Marriage should be honored by all,
and the marriage bed kept pure, for God will judge the adulterer and all the sexually immoral." The
Amplified Version of the Bible elaborates on this verse, nothing that marriage should be esteemed worthy
precious, of great price, and especially dear. This requires that we guard against any thought that
dishonors or belittles marriage.

Marriage is a refining process. Conflict will occur in every marriage. When issues erupt between the
two of you, it will be easy for one to blame the other. "If you would just leave the air conditioner on
when it gets this hot, I wouldn't get upset!" The fact is, your spouse won't make you sin. They simply
reveal what's already in your heart. One of the best wedding gifts God will give you is a full-length
mirror called your spouse. If He were to attach a card it would say, "Here's to helping you discover
what you're really like. Congratulations!"

Marriages are happy. It's the living together afterward that's tough.

A good marriage is not just a gift, it's an achievement.

Marriage is not for kids. It takes guts and maturity. It separates the men from the
boys and the women from the girls.

Marriage is tested daily by the ability to compromise. Its survival can depend on being smart enough to know what's worth fighting about. Or making an issue of or even mentioning.

Marriage is giving--and more important, it's forgiving.

By: Ricuccis' "Love that lasts".

Surrender to God as God's servant

"God, I want to be Your servant. I know that I can do nothing on my own. I know that I cannot achieve the success that You call me to achieve. I depend entirely on You to do Your work through me. I know that You can do anything You choose to do. I give myself completely to You. Work through me any way You want to work. Show me where You are at work and include me in that work. I will not question Your call. I will do any work You show me to do wherever that work is. Lord, accept the worship and dedication of Your servant today. In Jesus' name I prayed. Amen."

"What we are afraid to do before men, we should be afraid to think before God." -Beilby Porteus.

Shall I make the sacrifice?

I need to save money. But if I want to, I need to skip almost all the outings with my friends, I have to skip movie, skip cake eating session, skip alot of things, except for TQ's outing and other church's activity... And this is all the sacrifice I have to make, for my money saving plan, but I cherish those times out with my friends, cause I knew these times will not last for too long, soon we will all busy studying, working, each having our own life, we will only meet on Saturday and Sunday, maybe Wed sometimes when meeting, but it will be very hard for us to come out to play till very late, even ton overnight. It will be very hard for us to have those outings like we have now, and by then we will and we only can feel nostalgic about it... So the question is, shall I keep it the way now? Or shall I go for the money saving plan?
The way now: Have fun with friends. For next time all these will only become memories...
Money saving plan: Skip the fun with friends. Save for my future, but will sort of regret next time, cause I've missed all the fun with them...

I keeps on holding on to these few verses, Matthew 6:25-34 and Philips 4:6-7. Yes... I really shall not worry after all... Whatever will be, will be.

Adversary

I've noticed there is yet another antagonist.... All I could do is to seek His kingdom and His righteousness first and pray in faith and hope that He will surely have the best plans for all of us....

A Pause Life

I'm currently living a "pause" life, meaning to say, I can't work, I can't go to school to study, "stuck" here everyday.

But I am grateful, because of this "pause" I can return to God, and serve Him, because of this "pause" I can get to know all those kind and adorable people in Charis.

I got a feeling that this "pause" will "resume" soon, but I certainly hope that it "resume" in Singapore, and not Malaysia...

But whatever the outcome, I certainly believe that God has the best plan for me, so if you are willing, please pray for me and my brother to "resume" our life here in Singapore. :)

Optimistic

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.
You made me happy, when skys are grey....

:) Today I am happy. Because God has brighten up my day with His many ways.

Disposed to take a favorable view of events or conditions and to expect the most favorable outcome.

It's hard to hold in the drop of the saline, watery fluid continually secreted by the lacrimal glands.....

All I could do is to fully rely on God...and pray....

Sigh, it seems that quadratic equations alone is enough to give me a hard time... I guess I really can't fly before I learn to walk...

Sometimes it's is just so hard to do the most simple things... zzz

Expressing gratitude

I am grateful to two person, Wei Wen and Chun Quan. For they are willing to use their precious time, money and effort to teach a person like me... Thank you very much! And I know it's because God's love and mercy is in both of you. May God bless your days and may you be fruitful always. :)

Yawnism

To open the mouth somewhat involuntarily with a prolonged, deep inhalation and sighing or heavy exhalation, as from drowsiness or boredom. This is what I call, "Yawnism".

Things to clarify

Mel asked me a question in True or Dare today: "What could be the reason/s to make you leave church?" Well, Mel, here's my question first, leave church or leave God?

If leave church, well, there's many, for example: can't stay in Singapore is one big reason, or maybe when the church is too corrupted beyond hope.

But if it's leaving God, nope. It's not that I am over confident like you said, I am not confident with myself at all... It's just that I have faith in the Lord that He will protect me and deliver me away from the evil one, and I shall always seek His kingdom and His will first.

Many people leave church/God because of BGR! Yesh, this deadly problems causes a lot of people to leave church/God, funny thing is that they didn't put God as their first love, they put God as second or lower....

So, don't worry, I have placed God as my first love in life, so even things don't go my way, I believe God will have the best plan for me, even if it's regarding bgr.

That's all I want to clarify... going to sleep now... zzzzzz

Green Light

There's this legend in the North Europe, says that if you were to see the green light once in your life time, quickly make a wish, and whatever it is, it will come true.

期待着一个幸运和一个冲击
多么奇妙的际遇
翻越过前面山顶和层层白云
绿光在那里
触电般不可思议像一个奇迹
划过我的生命里
不同于任何意义你就是绿光
如此的唯一
Green light I'm searching for you
Always 不会却步哦
真爱不会结束
green light in my life
遇见了一个传奇却如此熟悉
在天空里的精灵说一声listen to me
有一道绿光幸福在哪里
触电般不可思议像一个奇迹
划过我的生命里不同于任何意义你就是绿光
如此的唯一

Rap>Maybe it's myth I'm seeking
you say
maybe it's a wild dragon chase anyway
but still i'm gonna listen to my heart and try
pack up all my load
so long, goodbye
green light i'm searching for you
always 不会却步哦
真爱不会结束
green light in my life
期待着一个幸运和一个冲击多么奇妙的际遇
翻越过前面山顶和层层白云绿光在那里
触电般不可思议像一个奇迹
划过我的生命里不同于任何意义你就是绿光
如此的唯一
na……na……na……na……
green light's right here
爱永远在你身边 身边 身边……
遇见了一个传奇却如此熟悉在天空里的精灵
说一声listen to me 有一道绿光幸福在哪里
触电般不可思议像一个奇迹
划过我的生命里不同于任何意义你就是绿光
如此的唯一
na……na……na……na……
这是最美的传奇在我心里
你就是唯一

By Stefanie Sun: Green Light. :)

Hanabi

The flowers are set alight, sparkling, dancing and releasing a green light.

The petals from the fireworks of dreams fall quietly into the heart inside.

Did you, who sent out the light, see it too? It's the same light.

And, even if you haven't, I believe that you will come to feel it someday.

I am singing to you, singing of this love that is roaming inside my heart. Can you hear my voice?

It's fireworks, bursting in an instant.

Bloom proudly, way up high, sparkling, dancing and releasing a green light.

The love that surrounds me rings out earnestly. At least, I will not regret until the end.

The flowers are set alight.

All kinds of words scattered about mischievously.

And the confusion that rooted me to the spot quietly disappeared...can you see it?

It's fireworks, bursting in an instant.

I grasp the sparkling, dancing flowers of dreams as they rain down into my hands.

Let my love ring out to you like I wish it to. I prayed day and night, that God will guide us through.

And the flowers are set alight.

It's fireworks, bursting in an instant.
Sparkling, dancing and releasing a green light.

Bloom proudly, way up high, sparkling, dancing and releasing a green light.

The love that surrounds me rings out earnestly. At least, I will not regret until the end.

And the flowers are set alight. . . . .



(This is a song originally from Bleach, I just change some of the lyrics so this is not my product.) ;)
(Next post is about the green light, for some of you who don't know what it is.)

The feeling of Hapad.

Today, I felt happy and sad at the same time... Someone told me this is called hapad, haha... Anyway, I was worrying about this and that...now I think about it, I really think too much la.... But here is some REALLY good verse that is my all time favorites: Philippians 4:6 "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." I must get over this kind feelings faster, well, what I mean is get over the sad one and stay the happy one, haha. Anyway, someone told me that I am too expressive with my expression, but I think it's good, cause most of the time we human forgot to express our expression out.... I'd always believe action speaks louder than words, but words are very important too.

I am shocked with myself. And I really really LOVE THE LORD!

I've said something which shocked myself greatly for I find its like a miracle for me to say it out... But I will never regret for what I've said, as I have been thinking and praying before I sent it out... "I love the Lord, because He has heard my voice." [Psalm 116:1] I love the Lord, more than just because He has heard my voice, and because He saved me and shower me with His grace for I am so unworthy...

Failure...

Suddenly, I feel that I'm a failure....

One Big Family

Today, I've come to realize, that, slowly and gradually, I have beginning to treat our church people as family... Which is great! Lord, teach me how to do better as they ARE indeed my eternal family. Amen. :D

From Ennui to Jubilate

Sitting in front of my laptop looking for something to do but there's just nothing I can do anymore except for posting this post...

I am going down to my mom's place soon, if it is the Lord's will, I will learn how to tailor to earn myself some money next time... Cause I figured, if I take up this job as my career next time, I could earn more than $10 per hour, which is quite amazingly lots to me. With my standard, if I were to work outside, I think I could at most earn $8 per hour, but with this job, I could earn more than that and I could take my off day anytime which is most suitable for a man like me :)

And even if I wanted to switch job next time I could just do so, wouldn't be much problem for me. And this job would earn me some savings to start a business or something... Most importantly, I could save some money for my marriage next time! Haha~

Sigh

What on earth..... Man, nowadays this world is really getting more and more corrupted... Just now an advertisment pop up from no where while I am playing Facebook, its about dating la, normally this kind of ad I would close it as soon as I sees it, but this ad attracts me with this title: BigChurch. Then when I looked at the ad, it "lame" me to the core man, women wearing so little trying to get dated... And it still says about "Connecting people through love and faith". What the heck? Sigh...

Check this out ------------>

Check it out yo, just added some new songs into the Mixpod... Too bad peeps, can't add more into it cause the mixpod can't play lots of songs... But man, Lecrae's song sure is nice! Check it out on youtube if you've got the time. I highly recommend these few songs: Indwelling Sin, Take me as I am, Invisible, Got paper, Go hard, Don't waste your life, I did it for you, and We don't.

Blah x10

Hmmm... Lately have been going out quite alot. Spend alot of money...but well, sure had fun being with those adorable peoples. Got bored quite easily lately, sitting infront of computer feel so empty man... Well, just posting this for the sake of posting. Cause people are saying my blog is so dead.

~The End~

PLANS

Nothing much to do today and so I decided to write down the savings plan and how am I going to get married by the age of 26...

It seems quite impossible if I start working next year till I'm 26...
6 years of savings average money is only around $50,000 the most... For I guess the average pay for someone like me is only around $5-$8 per hour
How am I suppose to get married with only around $50,000 savings by then? (Note: that is the most I can save by then after my calculation)
Even if I could get to married with this amount of money what about the money for my child's studys?
I'm quite worried... but I am gonna hold onto this verse of the Lord's

"For I know the PLANS I have for you", declares the Lord. "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future." (Jeremiah 29:11)

I shall not worried then... for He knows and has the plan for me... Amen.

Church Camp 2009

Just finished our church camp last Sunday. Didn't have time to post about it till today... Well, I guess I doesn't have much to say about it now either. Just that I felt both happy and sad during the entire camp... As for the reasons, I will not state it out, I'm just typing something out here regarding the church camp now...

But! The most happy thing about it is theres people who decided to believe in Christ!
Thanks be to God! Halleluiah!!!

A Confession of mine

I love my God, Jesus Christ. Who died for me to clear my debts.
I love my mom, Pang Siau Mui. Who rise me up with good care and love.
I love my sister, Isabelle Teh. Who is so adorable.
I love my brother, Vision Teh. Who sometimes(most of the times) made me angry, but he sure got things to be loved...(Let me think first...)
I love my grandma, Pang Boh Kio. Who take care of us 3 little brats since we're very young.
I love my church, Charis EFC. A place which is filled with so many kind hearted and good loving people...(Actually its them I love.)

Well, that's actually still alot of people I love, but I ain't gonna list them all out here. (:

Always remember, I love them not because I have great passion for them, in fact, I used to hate my family so much I wanted to kill them... But its because of God's love, it's because He loves me first and so I know how to love... Glory to the Almighty Lord. Amen.

Des Hunt - My Characteristics - Peacock/Dove

Warm, witty, open-minded and good fun to be with. They are sympathetic, easygoing, friendly and tactful, with a keen interest in other people and a willing ear for other people's problems. They make excellent counsellors and helpers. They seek to maintain friendly relationships and pleasant atmospheres where people are happy. They avoid conflical and admire people who look for, and see, the good in other people. They influence others through their warmth and caring attitude.

Shortcoming: Over-tolerant, Exaggerates.

Don't waste your life

Don't waste your life man!

I know a lot of people out there scared they gonna die
Couple of 'em thinking they'll be livin' in the sky
But while I'm here livin' man, I gotta ask: why?
What am I here for? I gotta figure out.
Waste my life? No I gotta make it count.
If Christ is real, then what am I gon' do about?
Everything in Luke 12:15 down to 21,
You really gotta go and check it out!
Paul said if Christ ain't resurrect then we wasted our lives
Well that implies, that our life's built around Jesus being alive
Everyday I'm living tryin' show the world why,
Christ is more than everything you'll ever try
Better than pretty women and sinning and living
To get a minute of any women and men that you admire,
It ain't no lie, we created for Him,
Outta the dust he made us for Him
Elects us and he saves us for Him,
Jesus comes and raises for Him
Magnify the Father, why bother with something lesser?
He made us so we could bless Him,
And to the world we confess Him
Resurrects Him, so I know I got life,
Matter fact better man I know I got Christ
If you don't' see His ways in my days and nights
You can hit my brakes, you can stop my lights
Man I lost my rights, lost my life
Forget the money, cars and toss that ice
The cost is Christ, and they could never offer me anything
On the planet that'll cost that price, yea!

Don't wanna waste my life

Armed and dangerous
So the devil jus' can't hang wid us
Christian youth them a stand wid us
Livin' n driven, given a vision,
Fullfillin' the commission He handed us
North to da south, east to da west, da rap evangelist
Ma daddy wouldn't abandon us.
So are you ready to jam with us?
So let's go, gimme the word and let's go
Persecution let's go, tribulation let's go
Across the nation let's go, procrastination bes' go
Hung on the cross in the cold
Died for da young and the old
Can't say you never know, heaven knows
How many souls are going to hell or to heaven,
So we gotta go in and get 'em

Don't wanna waste my life

Suffer, yeah do it for Christ,
If you trying to figure what to do with your life
You making a lot of money, hope you doing it right
Because the money is God's you better steward it right
Stay focused if you ain't got no ride
Your life ain't wrapped up in what you drive
The clothes you wear, the job you work
The color your skin, naw we Christian first
People living life for a job
Make a lil money start living for a car
Get em a house a wife kids and a dog
When they retire, they living high on the hog
But guess what they didn't ever really live at all
To live is Christ, and that's Paul I recall
To die is gain, so for Christ we give it all
He's the treasure you'll find in the mall
See your money your singleness. marriage, talent and time
They were loaned to you to show the world that Christ is Divine
That's why it's Christ in my rhymes
That's why it's Christ all the time
See my whole world is built around him, He's the life in my lines
I refused to waste my life He's too true to chase that ice
Heres my gifts and time,
'Cause I'm constantly trying to be used to praise the Christ
If He's truly raised to life, then this news should change your life
And by His grace you can put your faith,
In place that rules your days and nights

Don't wanna waste my life

Giving Thanks

All of a sudden, I remember all those kind souls that prayed for me last time... My aunts, my teacher...and those who prayed for me but I forgot or didn't knew... I am really really really really really really reallyx10 grateful to you people... Cause if you didn't prayed for me, I wouldn't be possibly sitting here right now giving thanks to you all, and most importantly return to God through His Son, Lord Jesus Christ... And I thank God for those who are constantly praying for me these days, I thank God for all of you, and I pray to God for you all, pray that you all will continue to work hard in the missions that God gave us, the most important one that is, saving more souls and making disciple of all nations... Halleuiah, Amen!

最近比较烦

Lately been vexed about alot of things, including money... Didn't know that I'd would reduce to the state that I have to worry about cash... Was whining to myself: "I have to save money for my future marrige and now my money just keep going out...", I even started to think that if I don't go to the upcoming camp better, cause it cost around $250-$300, which is VERY tight on my pocket these days as my pocket money was reduced... You might say: "GET A JOB!!!" Well, if I could I wouldn't want to depend on my father on that pathetic little amount of money dude. But well, after reading this Bible verse it somehow encouraged me... It is in [Colossians 3:2 Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things.] This verse reminds me once again, that I should not worry about earthly things such as cash, and should focus on things above, which is the souls of many, I hope that going to this camp would not be a waste of my money and time, pray that I can say/do something which will bring people closer to God and eventually bring those "lost sheeps" back to the Father's embrace. Let's pray that this camp would be a meaningful and successful one brothers and sisters...

I am a peacock

Today attanded a "Knowing your Character" class in church, and realise that I'm a peacock... Hmm... how interesting...

True Love

Since love is in da house, I thought of posting these lovely quotes...

True love is not how you forgive, but how you forget, not what you see but what you feel, not how you listen but how you understand, and not how you let go but how you hold on.

True love is not about the hugs and kisses, the 'I love you's' or the 'I miss you's', but about the chills that hit every part of your spine when you think about that person.

When we love, it isn't because the person's perfect, it's because we learn to see an imperfect person perfectly.

It's not who you are to the world, it's who you are to me. It's not how many times I say I love you... it's how much I really do.

True love doesn't just fill your heart, it overflows into your whole body and soul.

You don't love a woman because she's beautiful, but she's beautiful because you love her.

True love is an acceptance of all that is, has been, will be, and will not be.

True love cannot be given up, if it can, then it is not true love.

CL's pre-bday celebration

Who is in the dark....?

TADA!!! Its CCL!!! Our most "si-wen" sister....

Look at what she is doing.... (WL: Oh! 我的娘！）

CL: I tell you all hor! Eat things arh! Must eat comfortably right? So putting up leg/s is common...

Correct right!? Agree!?!

:))))))))))))))))))))))

Sisters 们：K la, k la, you're right la, give you a hug la....

Say: Yim!!!!!!

Boys over flowers, LX over flashed.... (Vic's camera: "Sorry LX!!!)

Thats all for our Pre-Bday girl..... I really regreted not taking more photos... )))))))))))))))))))):

爱情？脑情？心情？ 傻傻分不清楚....

Today, for some reasons, one of my friend mentioned about true love... She challenged/object/oppose/reject the concept of my idea true love... Well, to be honest, I don't know if my thinking is right, I don't know if her's is correct, but I do know that without God's love, either you love with brain, heart or whatever you thinks it is true love, it is all just futile...

A Package that I hated

When I didn't order tiredness, it will come...
and when it come, it comes with a little more nasty things...
things like easily frustrated, sadness for no reasons, lack of patience, can't think properly...

Sigh...

And now when I'm posting these whining words, I am on this package now. So if you find it's funny, go ahead and laugh, because the next time when I read this again, I'd probably will laugh too...

Stupid dao~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

BIGBANG - Lies

I'm so sorry, but I love you and I can't lie. . .

What wonderful words. . . like this lyrics of this song!

Take me as I am

Christ through faith
I talked to my mom the other day
And she was like;
"Son I'm too busy to go to church
and I feel like my life is full of too much sins, I'm ashamed to come before God..."
I told her, I used to think that way too
I thought I had to change myself before I could come to Christ
But Christ changed me
Let me tell you my story, it starts like this

[Verse One]
It starts with Gospel of Matthew 5:28,
givin me warning, sermons in my head keep reocurrin'
Havin' visions in my head of a kid
Cryin' at the feet of the Father, for all the wrong things that he did
Now I'm sweatin' in my sheets can't sleep
My mind keeps tellin' me I'm six feet deep
Don't remind me, even though I'm still alive I can tell
The way I'm living my life I feel like I'm going to hell
God they telling me I should accept you
That you had to leave the world, cause the world left you
Reason I can't change, like a mystery to me
So I make believe there really is a heaven for a G
Even though they say you loved the world so much, you shed ya blood
God, I feel I'm too messed up for love
They tell me come as I am but I still engulfed in sins
My whole lifes full of sin cause it's all I know
The Bible told me that you died for my sins
If I believe in Christ, it'll save me from the end
But I'm scared to ask you, to save me my heart
So evil, I got thoughts, that's full of hatred, hurtin' people
I thought at first I had to clean up my life
Now I'm hearin' I just need to cling to the light
I'm ready to do it, but Lord I pray you understand
My life is a mess, will you take me as I am?

[Chorus]
Will you take me as I am
I know the way I'm living is wrong
But I can't change on my own, trying to make it alone
I wonder, how could you love me when my life so ugly
But you came down and died for me

Will you take me as I am
I know the way I'm living is wrong
But I can't change on my own, trying to make it alone
I wonder, how could you love me when my life so ugly
But you came down and died for me
Will you take me as I am

[Verse Two]
I'm sick and tired of trying to me the man, my mummy never taught me to be
I'm grown up now, life ain't what I thought it would be
I made many mistakes in my past I can't fix
Now I'm staring at this crusifix tatted on my wrist
Is it true what they telling me, am I just crazy
Did ya bleed on the cross, for my sins to save me
But why would ya die for me
My whole life I've been working for Satan, while he fed lies to me
And now I'm hearing too much, trying to get a true touch
Of a love that can change me, I'm all screwed up
Figure Hell is what I deserve
But your word says we all fall short so I guess we all outta burn
Teach me I wanna learn
How you could save a wretch like me, before death says it's my turn
I think I finally understand
No matter my past, you'll still take me as I am

[Chorus]

[Verse Three]
Now I have a few last words to give
I be telling people the reason to live
The reason to die, united with the King in the sky
This life is passing us by, I got no reason to lie
You'll never give the world enough, they'll hunger for more
They figure there ways are nuthin to the wonderous lord
More security than the man that left you
More love than the moms who kept you
He'll always accept you
Be everything your supposed to
Let Christ rule ya heart, mind, body and soul cause He chose you
And if the world don't know you
It don't matter, you're God's child and he'll never disown you
Ya purpose on earth is far from worthless
That's why ya glorified like ya life's been purchased
And it don't matter if the world don't seen us
We still mean the world to Jesus

[Chorus]

[Talking]
Yeah, we're saved by grace through faith
It's not works
Ain't nuthin you can do, ain't nuthin I can do
That could get us this grace salavation that we got man
It's only Christ
So if you feel like you gotta clean yourself up
Before you can come to Him
Forget it
Just come to Him
He'll take you as you are, and he'll change YOU
From the inside, out

Rebel Intro Lyrics

Rebel - I'm in rebellion

Verse 1: Jesus was a rebel, a renegade, outlaw/ A sanctifiedtroublemaker but He never sinned, naw/ and He lived His life by a different set of Rules/ the culture ain't approve/so you know they had they had to bruise em/ that's the way theydo/ man, they swear they so gangsta but everyones the same/ everybody do the same stuff/ tattoo, piercing/ smokin' up and drinking/ money and sex plus them extravagant weekends/ if that's the high life/ I'll puff puff pass that/ you leave evaporated like you missing a gas cap/ I guess I'm passed that/ cause I am in rebellion/ I'd rather have a dollar in my pocket than a mill-ion/ I'm scared to worship money, and my wants over Elyon/ I'll remain a rebel while the rest of them just carry on/this is what I live fo/ this the hill I'm buried on/ if Jesus is the truth/ that means one of us is VERY wrong/ think about it

I know that in our day rebel means sinner, but everyone is sinning so it is no longer rebellious to sin. Jesus was a rebel who was counter cultural

Verse 2: No glory in me/ all glory to the King on the throne (Jesus)/ you either love Him or leave Him alone but you cant do both/ yeah, you probably heard that once in song/ I pray you hear 10 mo fo ya gone/ yeah listen up, holmes/ The stage is my corner and my crowd is the streets/ That's why I rap the bread of life cause they dyin' to eat/I'm a rebel you know the kind that die in the street/Cause you refuse to conform, won't eat the kings meat/ look, if Christ rebelled by shunning the cultured/ He eatin' with sinners/ givin Pharasies ulcers/ He never got married, was broke and plus homeless/yeah that's the God I roll wit/ ya boy gotta wife and no I neva cheated/ I'm prayin for humility whenever I get heated/ forget about the drugs/ rebel against pornography/ this ain't how it oughta be, homie/ this is how it's gotta be/ A rebel

You are just a conformist, if you are drunk and naked, driving around on a lot of motorcycles,smoking cigarettes and breaking commandments, and getting pregnant out of wed-lock. Everyone has do that it is so tired. If you really want to be a rebel read your Bible, because no one is doing that.... that's rebellion that's the only rebellion left.

Random but serious question...

Today, while my bro, CL, CM, LX, MEL and I were talking while we're waiting for the bus, all of a sudden, I forgot who, pop up this question: If your beloved mother and beloved wife fell into the sea at the same time and they doesn't know how to swim, and you're happend to be just at the MIDDLE between them, who would you save first?
Hard to answer?
Heres another one which I thought of: If your most beloved wife and your most beloved daugther fell into the sea at the same time, who will you save first? AND you're also in the middle AND they doesn't know how to swim. I chose to save my wife even though I knew she would hate me for the rest of her life. Is it correct or wrong? Or is it wise? I don't know...

Something I realize while I'm walking....

Went to the church (aka JHS) to play ping-pong just now (as usual), and when I'm heading home, I saw lots of police hanging around... They are so-call 'sweeping' out the industrial area for hookers and illegal workers, I don't know why, I just feel pity for them... maybe my Spiritual life 'level up' again? Well, anyway, I pray for them as I pass by, and I give thanks for the things around me...prayed for those who passes my by, pray that God will show mercy on them... I feel like I'm closer to God by one more step again...which is quite a nice feelings and experience for me... :)

I did it for you

I did it for you

That's why I did it y'all
For all the readers
Whoever be reading this
That's why I do what I do

I did it for you

Little young man who were always caught in lust
Feeling the world isn't Just and nobody He'll trusts.
Acting tough on the surface tryin to be mean
He didn't realize that he is still engulfed in sin.
Human's deceiving nature made him feeling so down
Feels like killing everybody and put em back to the ground
Tryin to waste his life and end up dead
Too busy playing around never looking ahead
Sometimes in the night, he get upset and cry
Turn his heads towards the sky trying to ask God why
But he never looked up till then
Every other day he concerned with the world and consumed in sin
Not Christ just heaven he want
He think clean means not trying to sling things out of his trunk
Nobody ever told him heaven was spotless and we're all dirty
That's why we need a Holy God to wash us

[Chorus:]
I did it for you
I opened up and shared my life
So that you can see we all need Christ
I did it for you
If you can understand my pain
Maybe you can see we all need change
I did it for you
Gave you my life my pain my hurt
Man I hope this work
I did it for you
Since Christ died for sin
I never be the same again
I did it for you

Young dude, I remember coming home after school
Switch on the computer to watch some cartoons
Up late in the night tryin to watch some porn
Keep the volume down and make sure everyone is gone
And it was so bad but I thought it was good
Everyday tryin to watch porn as long as I could
I used to love staying home alone for hours
Entertaining my sin and my soul devour
Pick up by the cops at the age of 12
And not because my momma didn't raise me well
Used to be a nominal Christian and I went to church
Hated every minute of it and I didn't think praying would work
I ain't never felt Jesus so I feel all empty
Like why He never show or why don't he come get me
And everyday I just kept believing the lies
So that one day the devil can come to consume me alive
A typical youth I mean A typical youth 18 agnostic and looking for truth
I lived for myself, no one ever told me the plan
God had to bring redemption to a fallible man
Good news really wasn't good news to me
Cause I never knew the condemnation due to me
And I wish somebody would of told me then
What it meant to know Christ and to be born again

[Chorus]
I did it for you
I opened up and shared my life
So that you can see we all need Christ
I did it for you
If you can understand my pain
Maybe you can see we all need change
I did it for you
Gave you my life my pain my hurt
Man I hope this work
I did it for you
Since Christ died for sin
I never be the same again
I did it for you

Thought I was saved and tell people I'm a Christian
Well I don't really understand the preaching while I'm listening
It's hard trying to grow up in a sinful land
And I don't have an example of a Godly man
Well hold on; just keep my eyes on Christ
When we enter in the world, man our lives alright
They say heaven has a ghetto but that ain't true
And if God has a standard then that ain't you and that ain't me
That's what I learned one day when a man named Mike Cleveland changed my life
He told me that Christ paid the price for sin
Every lie I ever told Christ died for them
See, I never knew I offended God I just knew I really wasn't trying to live for God
And my sins all cost me, Yeah pretty costly
I couldn't blame the hood for the death sin bought me
All that I could do was blame myself and realize there was no way I could change myself
So I trusted Christ with my lustful life
And he saved me that's why I am trying to post these words
Yeah so if you ask who I am spitting this to, that's right y'all I did it for you
And if you ask who I have written this to, that's right I did it for you

[Chorus]

I did it for you
I opened up and shared my life
So that you can see we all need Christ
I did it for you
If you can understand my pain
Maybe you can see we all need change
I did it for you
Gave you my life my pain my hurt
Man I hope this work
I did it for you
Since Christ died for sin
I never be the same again
I did it for you
I did it for you...

Given Up

After numerous attempts of uploading the photos of Thailand's Lahu mission trip for the past 2 weeks and it JUST KEEP ON GIVING ME ERROR, I've decided to give up on it...

On the way...

While we were 'climbing' up the mountains...
There were people who are acting cool....People who are sooooooooo excited. (Alan: "YEPIIIIIIIIIII!!! WE ARE GOING UP THE HILLS!!!)

People who are freezing...

People who are singing and dancing!
ARRIVED!!!

Preparation when we're in Thailand.

Buying gifts for the kids in Lahu...Eating lunch....(More like taking photos)Acting cool...(Only the one in violet is cool...)Sorting out the presents...Blow some big bubble...(What does this got to do with mission trip?!?)
Acting retarded...(Getting worse...)
Been murdered by 2 retards...(How much worse can we get?)Dancing cha-cha!! (HEY!)
Packing foods to bring up to Lahu... (Finally some serious stuff...)

Prayers before we set off...

SET OFF~!!!

Preparation before Lahu Mission-Trip 2009!!!

HELLO EVERYBODY! MY NAME IS MASKED CHICKEN RIDER, AND NOW I'M ABOUT TO INTRODUCE YOU THE PEOPLE AND WHAT HAPPENED WHEN WE WERE PREPARING FOR OUR THAILAND'S LAHU MISSION TRIP 2009!!!
We will have meetings every now and then when we can...
This is our Pastor Chua...
He is teaching ZL and Nat how to do the shadowless faith catching techniques...

Here he goes! WOW!